Nothing but a lie

2010-12-12T15:58:00.005+08:00

Be who you wanna be and not who others chooses you to be.

Apparently i'm done with ITB, more revision is needed but i'm kind of lazy and distracted now.

Therefore, i'm here blogging.

Had been a good girl this weekend, stayed home to study and initially i wanted to study more and sleep later yesterday but i was lousy!

I ended up sleeping before 12am still :(

I'm so excited because i'm gonna meet baby later!

Not sure where we're going but that's not important, the main thing is to meet him (:

Can't wait for the common test to be over.

Lots of fun will be coming up in the next 2 weeks.

Baby's 21st and christmas celebration with cuzzies!

Last thurs met up with ede, xw and sj.

Had an awesome time catching up with them.

It has been a long time since we four get together and talk about nonsense! Haha.

At least, i'm a happy girl for now (:

2010-11-30T22:28:00.003+08:00

Love is always a surprise, it hits you at the most unexpected time, place, person, and situation.

Had a short get away trip to pulau ubin with baby and his camp mates.

It was a great experience as it was my first time there and i'm glad that everything went on well.

It wasn't as bad as what i had thought and baby's camp mates were quite nice, i was like a princess there.

I wasn't allowed to do all the tough job, they would always ask me to pass the tough job to them and all i have to do is to enjoy myself there. Haha!

On the first night, baby got so excited about drinking and he started drinking super early, as a result he got drunk before midnight.

It was my first time taking care of him when he's drunk cos all the time i will be the one who will be drunk first!

On the second day, we went for cycling and due to my lousiness baby had to share a bike with me and i got a blue black on my feet though i did not have to control the bike!

Baby insist that i didn't help to paddle the bike when i really did! :(

It was a great experience cycling around pulau ubin and i was so glad that i didn't ride a bike myself as the whole ride was full of slopes which are very steep!

Alright, enough updates on the trip.

Last friday met up with the girls to surprise ede and i'm glad that it was a very successful one! (:

A few more hours it will be me and baby's 17 month anniversary!

I'm thinking if i should wait till 12am or go to sleep now..

I'm seriously very tired now and i'm struggling to keep myself awake but i think i should stay up.

Maybe i shall just stay up then! (:

On a side note, i need to start studying soon!

The common test is coming up in 2 weeks time and i don't have the time to study due to the all the upcoming projects! :(

I can't afford to not score for this common tests!

I shall stop here.

Mich Loves You.

2010-11-16T14:53:00.003+08:00

Love without trust is like a car without an engine, you can try to push but it won't get you far!

Apparently, i'm slacking and i've just wasted an hour by doing unproductive stuff like blog hopping and now i'm blogging which i classify under unproductive too! Haha!

The rest have went for their bstats tutorial and i'm exempted hence that explains why i'm alone for the past one hour but very soon HL will be coming over to accompany! Yayness (:

I'm gonna crash their bstats lecture later as we will be having dinner together after their lecture which ends at 7pm.

Decided not to meet baby tonight as i want to strike a balance between boyfriend and friends, however at times it seemed almost impossible but i will still try my best!

Thankfully, baby was able to understand and didn't really make a fuss over it.

Last weekend was crazy!

Had two days of drinking, luckily the second day i didn't drink as much as the first day orelse i might die from drinking! HAHA!

Took quite a few pictures with ede, merv and baby on friday.

I really loved the photo that i took with baby and the reason is because we would hardly take serious photos aas he doesn't like taking photos :(

Shall upload them and I need to start on my tutorial soon, i've been neglecting my studies recently! :(

Got to go, bye! (:

2010-11-11T09:36:00.003+08:00

When we are no longer able to change a situation, we are challenged to change ourselves.

Had an awesome and tiring day spent yesterday.

Went for my third lesson of driving during my 3 hours break and i'm progressing very slowly which is a bad thing.

Which means that i will have to spend longer time and more money to get my license :(

I'm still quite confused with everything but i think as time goes by i will get more familiar with it.

Headed to clementi to meet baby after school and we trained down to somerset as baby wanted to shop for his stuff.

We practically went all over singapore yesterday!

We went to somerset, orchard, bugis and cityhall but baby didn't see anything that he likes and he was so disappointed and sad.

Instead he got a shirt for me from fox and brought me to eat my favourite yoghurt! (:

We ate lots of food here and there yesterday that i think i had gained weight from it! HAHA.

I'm so looking forward to the chalet that i'll be going with baby at pulau ubin!

It will be my first time there.

Some photos to share.

Love this stupid and irritating face! (:

2010-11-09T09:48:00.004+08:00

It's hard when you try to not be jealous of others.

Currently, i'm blogging during tutorial cos it's freaking boring and this tutorial will last for 3 hours!

I've made a point to bring my laptop during this tutorial as it's long and dry.

Yesterday had my bcomm presentation and thank god it's over.

It wasn't that bad i suppose, just that i had a little too many fillers in my presentation.

Headed off to Shagri-la to accompany aaron and weiyang to get their pay.

There was a total of 9 person who went to shangri-la when only 2 person were getting their pay. HAHA!

Aftermath, we headed down to bugis while weiyang left for school.

Went to J.CO and i had their yoghurt together with huilin and it's awesome, not really expensive too!

Left at around 6pm and we were all so drain out, took a long bus ride home and i literally fell asleep in the bus!

Got home, watch a little bit of tv and unexpectedly i fell asleep!

I jumped out of bed in the middle of night and i realised that i had many things undone :(

As a result, i overslept in the morning and thankfully i wasn't late for school. (:

Some photos to share which was taken on the day when i went out with xiaohui and those taken yesterday!

2010-11-02T21:49:00.003+08:00

A friend is one who knows you and loves you just the same.

Headed down to holland village for daily scoops with meixin, huilin, cherry, yihui and jiaqi yesterday.

It has been a norm for the 5 of us to hang out every monday ever since school started as it was the day when our lessons ended early.

We were saying that very soon jiaqi would become a girl as he's the only guy among the 5 of us! Haha!

Had lots of fun playing retarded games and during the process yihui broke of the cups but luckily we didn't have to pay for it.

Took the same bus home with yihui as only the both of us stayed at the North and our bus stop was the furthest!

Got home and didn't feel very happy due to some issues but i don't wish to bring it up now.

I'm so thankful that i've got a great boyfriend who will always be there for me no matter what!

Reached school super early today and meixin was surprised cos i use to be late all the time!

I had no choice cos the bus 52 is an ass!

I either catch this bus which will reach school super early or take the next bus which will make me late for school!

Anyway school was fun and i ended earlier than the rest as i'm exempted from statistics.

Luckily igen was free, so we went to our space to slack together and i left at 5:30pm to meet my dearest babe for dinner!

It's been a long time since we last met up and chit chat!

Really missed her so much and the other girls!

Was supposed to meet xw too but this time she wasn't able to make it again :(

Oh, before i forget! Our dearest friend, Shafeek have enlisted today to serve the nation and we hope that he would be fine!

It's been a month since we last saw him with his long hair.

The next time we meet him, he would be botak and i'm sure that i'll be laughing the moment i see him!

In conclusion, i had an awesome day catching up with ede babe and i hope it won't be long before i can meet again!

One more person i've not met for so long is Alicia babe!

Our schedule always clashes and it's really difficult for the both of us to meet up :(

Miss her lots too, hope to meet her up soon soon soon.

I seriously hate the word "soon" cos it doesn't seem to happen!

Gonna upload some photos that i've taken with ede babe and tmr i'll be meeting xiaohui!

I'm so looking forward to it! (:

2010-10-28T15:36:00.004+08:00

Your heart knows your song, but you have to be willing to listen to the words.

It's the third day for me feeling all fucked up and screwed!

Sometimes i have the urge to make things so freaking obvious in hope to let them know who i'm referring to but not to make things worst i shall keep it all to myself.

I don't want to feel so emotional anymore, my friends have been complaining about me being too emotional but i really hate to be like this.

It's the things happening around me that shape me to be what i am today.

I wish i could be more optimistic but i just can't.

Perhaps, i haven't tried but it takes lots of effort to change.

I always feel that i look weird with my fringe all pinned up as i have uneven eyes! Haha!

But well, i kind of think it looks better now.

What do you guys think?

Anyway, it's time for me to start cracking my brains to think who i want to be in the future and it has to be non-fiction and the person has to be famous!

Gosh, how am i gonna come out with it when i don't idiolised anyone :(

Someone help me pls!!

Oh well, I'm gonna take a nap first before i start cracking my brains.

2010-10-27T22:01:00.003+08:00

It Just Doesn't Feel Right

Its hard knowing the fact everyone thinks you have a wonderful life, fun , happy, and cheerful life, but when you are alone, you cry for no reason you just cry and cry till you feel happy and then when you are happy you want to feel sad again and just keep crying

Feeling so emotional all of a sudden and i kind of think that it's because i've been staying home for the past 2 days that i'm feeling so lonely!

Every wednesday is supposed to be a day out with baby but for the past few wednesdays it has been a day where i have been lazing at home and feeling all fucked up! :(

Thanks to the NS shit that made me feel so screwed!

It's times like this that made me feel like i'm going through all these alone and i felt like i've no one there for me besides baby!

I seriously think that it's time for me to meet the girls and so many others, it has been a long time since we last met.

I've been rather lazy to plan meetups recently cos i'm kind of scared to get disappointments, so all i'm doing all this while is just waiting.

But well, all my waiting have came to nothing!

Alright, apart from that monday went to the airport with meixin, yihui, jiaqi, huilin and cherry!

Jiaqi being the only guy he was feeling rather awkward but we girls are nice we will never make anyone feel left out (:

Had an awesome day with them and took a really long bus ride home which i really enjoyed alot!

I was telling jiaqi and huilin how i enjoyed long bus rides and they agreed with me too! (:

Gonna stop here!

2010-10-22T15:17:00.006+08:00

I Just Want To Know That I'm Worthwhile.

It's my last day of work today and i'm currently blogging in the office for the very last time!

I've completed the task that i was given when i just came and i can say that it's beautifully done.

I'm serioulsy going to miss the friends that i make here!

But somehow i feel so unappreciated and unwanted.

I know it's because i'm a temp or maybe it's my personality.

It just upsets me when i see them reacting this way.

The thing is, why am i so affected when they treat me as a nobody only?

Gosh! What the hell is wrong with me??

They leave me out in alomst everything except lunching but why do i still feel sad for leaving?

Fuck this feeling and this shitty world!

Sorry for the languge but i really cannot tolerate it anymore.

I've been tolerating all this shit for a long time but i've never shown it out before bcos i know i don't have the right to show them attitude bcos i'm not close with them and i'm just a temp here, which to them it's not counted as a team, so i'm here taking all this shit all alone!

People whom are close to me should know how i would react.

Alright, enough of all these shit!

I shall just leave this place and forget about everyone here except one very good friend that i've made here!

She have been the best throughout my stay here.

Met up with baby yesterday and it has been 4 long days not meeting him till yesterday and it feels so good to see him again!

Had a wonderful day with him yesterday.

Love him to the max! (:

Many of TB22 peeps birthday falls on october and tuesday we just celebrated Cherry's birthday and today the rest of the class went to celebrate Igen, Gideon and Jovin's birthday but sadly i couldn't make it. :(

I really wish i could make it lah.

Might be going over to find them after work if possible. (:

Saw the picture of the cake that they had made and it's damn cute.

Shall grab the picture and post it up here!

The next few are the pictures taken on tuesday. (:

2010-10-14T17:00:00.004+08:00

It Couldn't Be Any Better.

Knocking off in 30 mins time and half of the time i'm slacking and surfing the net
. Went online shopping again and i bought one top which cost less than 10 bucks!
I think if i continue to be so free for the next week, i'm gonna be broke in no time.
Next week is gonna be my last week and i terribly want to leave but i will definitely miss the fun loving colleagues here.
Though i'm not really close to them but i love the way they talk and joke around during lunch time!
Anyway, met baby yesterday after work and we had steamboat which was similar to Seoul Garden.
The food there were awesome, lots of variety and it's much cheaper then Seoul Garden.
I think it's worth a try!
Baby was sick yesterday but his appetite was not affected at all!
He ate lots of food that i was so astonished by the amount of food he ate.
Aftermath, we walked around novena to digest and soon after we both went our separate ways.
Enjoyed my night with him though it was just a simple meet up!
And one more thing, baby said that i'm getting prettier and prettier and i kind of doubted his words but he claims that it's true so i shall accept it.
Furthermore, he rarely praise me so i should be happy! Haha!
Alright, ending work soon!

2010-10-11T10:59:00.003+08:00

ARIES Want The Acknowledgement of Their Good Work & Get Hurt If They Don't Get It.

It's a monday morning and as usual i'm feeling so lethargic.
Nothing much to do still and it's getting lesser now as there is a new staff that came 2 weeks back and she's taking over my stuff but the only difference is that she's not a temp unlike me.
I love my current desk and today will be the best day for me to slack! Haha!
As my colleague sitting behind me is on leave and my boss will only be back this friday! Woohoo~

Today will be the day which will decide the fate of TB22 peeps.
We will be selecting our timetable today and all of us have been discussing about it yesterday.
The guys were awesome, they did alot of work by asking around all the classes and selecting the ones which are empty so that majority could be in the same class!
I'm so gonna break down if i can't be in the same class with those people whom i really want to.
I'm gonna camp infront of my com at 3:15pm so that i could get the class that i want and i know it sounds kind of kiasu but majority are like that! Haha!

Yesterday wasn't a really good day.
Nevertheless, i still enjoyed baby's company and now i feel that being the only child in the family is not really a good thing either.
Baby was abit harsh yesterday but i think his mum should undertsand his feelings.
I feel that i'm part of it too though i hadn't done anything wrong.
It's very difficult to remove a bad impression but i'm trying real hard!
I'm gonna do whatever it takes just to be with the person i love.

2010-10-07T22:19:00.005+08:00

It's hard to wait around for something that u know will never happen. but it's harder to stop when it's everything you've ever wanted.

I've decided to blog alittle since i'm using my laptop after so long!

I'm still kind of lost about the choosing of timetable.

It's so confusing and my bro is currently struggling to get a class for himself and appears to be freaking scary which actually freaked me out that's why i've decided to go online and check, to keep myself safe.

The last few days were crazily fun and tiring that i've decided to go late for work as i'm really worn out.

The 3 days with TB22 peeps were awesome, felt kind of emotional on the last night as the thought that i won't be in the same class as these awesome people kind of upsets me :(

But well, this is life so i just got to face it.

Hopefully will get to be in the same class with some of them.

Sadly no one brought a camera, what a pity lah!

Anyway Igen brought polaroid so at least i had one polaroid shot with me.

Wanted to go wild wild wet the 2nd day of the chalet but i was so unlucky!

It was closed on tuesday and i was so sad lah cos i haven't been there before and the most part saddening part is i can't go with TB22 :(

Hence, we decided to go for in line skating and i suck at that!

I didn't know how to skate and i fell on my butt umpteen times that my butt starts to cramp now and then but it was worth the try.

The guys were awesome!

Some of them didn't know how to skate too but there were hell daring unlike me!

Weilong, Igen and Cherry got to take turns to hold my hand cos i was so freaking scared that i will fall but i still fell though and it was super hilarious!

Alright all in all, i totally enjoyed the 3 days 2 nights spent with TB22 and i really will miss them!

Got to stop here now, heading to bed real soon!

2010-10-04T10:08:00.004+08:00

One Of The Hardest Things In Life Is Having Words In Your Heart You Can't Utter.

Currently, i'm stoning in office.
Have been web hopping since i turn on the com, i'm not sure if there is such a word but basically i've been going to different websites to waste time.
I've got nothing much to do so i'm trying my best to drag my stuff so that i won't die of boredom.
Apparently, i'm feeling so tired that i really have the urge to sleep on my desk right now!
The weekends were tiring but no doubt it was fun!
Last sat went to ede's bf chalet together with tracy, shaff and salwa as he was celebrating his 21st.
Tracy, Shaff and Salwa left early as tracy had work the next day, Shaff couldn't stay out late and Salwa brought her daughter!
Her daughter was super cute, she's not afraid of new surroundings, she don't cry much and she have nice features but too bad didn't took any pictures with her :(
Initially, i was supposed to go back with Tracy but last min i decided to stay on to accompany ede and wait for XW.
However, Xw didn't make it as something cropped up at her work place and it was a pity that we couldn't meet her!
Seems like she's not fated to meet us huh?
It's been a long time since we last met her as she's always busy with work.
Hopefully there will be a time when we can meet her soon!!
Anyway, i stayed on and played funny games with ede's bf's friends and they were awesomely funny!
Drank martell and i wasn't that tipsy, guess my alcohol level has increased. HAHA!

The friends sent me home and thus i was able to save up the cab fare (:
We had a hard time getting home that day as there was a heavy downpour and it was the worst downpour i've ever seen.
Vision was bad due to the heavy downpour but luckily it was super early in the morning, hence there weren't many cars on the road.
Reached home at 5am, wash up alittle and quickly head to bed so that i could wake up on time to meet baby the next day.
Despite having the mindset to get up early to meet baby, i still overslept cos i was so tired.
Headed to baby's place for dinner, as usual ate alot of food that made me felt super bloated!
Went off with baby as he needed to book in and he bought lots of junk food for his field camp.
He have been avoiding vegetables the last few days cos he doesn't want to shit in the jungle! HAHA!
Gonna miss him for 5 days :(
But i think time will pass fast this week cos i'll be having chalet for the next 3 days with TB22. (:
Alright, i'm gonna stop here now cos it's very wordy already.

2010-10-01T09:20:00.006+08:00

It Doesn't Mean That You Will Get Good Results After Great Contribution.

It wasn't a very good morning to start with as i overslept in the morning but the lucky thing is that no one will be in office today.

On the other hand my results will be out today so be it good or bad i will have to face it alone.

Alright as i was typing that sentence one of my colleague walked in so means i'm not alone today but i rather be alone today cos i'm not really close with her and i don't talk to her! HAHA!

Now, i'm feeling all uneasy bcos of her presence! :(

Went to see my results just now and i was kind of disappointed, it wasn't what i had expected but well what pass has passed so i shall let bygones be bygones and hope for the better the next time round.

Yesterday had a fun day out with Chuiling, Xiaojuan and Jane.

Celebrated Jane's belated birthday and we successfully surprised her! (:

Got home at 12am and i was super worn out by that time cos ever since i started work i have the habit to turn in at 10.30 or 11 but it will never hit 12am!

Anyway the time with them was well spent, had many fun moments and unglam moments which resulted us in laughing throughout the whole time!

Gonna stop here for now!

Can't wait for work to end!

Meeting baby tonight (:

2010-09-29T10:13:00.002+08:00

It's funny how when you go through a year, nothing seems to change, but when you look back everything is different.

I've been updating irregularly lately as i'm pretty lazy by the time i reach home after work.
Today was exceptional, i'm currently blogging at work and i feel kind of sinful but who cares!?!?
I'm so bored from scrolling up and down the excel document with nothing to do!
This week was rather free at work as some stuff went wrong so my work got delayed, hence i'm super free now.
Last friday, pop by crys house together with Alicia to give her a surprise but it wasn't a very great day to surprise her as she was ill.
Anyway, we still did enjoyed ourselves and crys was happy too!
Took lots of pics in her hse, crys said that she will be uploading them ystd but apparently, it's still not up on fb! :(
Crys will be leaving for china soon..
We're definitely gonna miss her, miss all her nonsense and all the fun that all 3 of us had together which consist of MAC!

Yesterday met up with SJ and tracy.
I'm glad that everything didn't turn out to be as serious as what i had expected.
But right now, it feels so good that the air is cleared.
Hopefully this sat everything will go on well and nothing bad will happen, *crosses my fingers*.
Will probably be meeting baby after work, tmr will be meeting my beloved primary school mates and fri... the only thing that i had been waiting for all these while... my results!!
Gosh, i always have bad feelings before the release of results! :(
Tracy's and Jane's results were out yesterday and i'm happy for them (:
Alright, gonna stop here and get back to work before someone catch me! HAHA!

2010-09-23T22:07:00.004+08:00

Most of The Time, Things Doesn't Turns Out The Way You Want It To.

I gave work a miss today.

As i was too tired from yesterday's outing with Alica.

Yesterday was really a tiring day.

First time felt so bored and tiring in clubs.

I was approached by a guy in there and was totally turn off from the things he asked me!

Hence, i told Alicia that i wanted to leave shortly after the guy approached me!

However, aside from the boring experience in the club, the date with Alicia was awesome! (:

Bought a pair of wedges from mitju which i took a long time to decide if i should get it and as expected i got blisters from it :(

Was rather emotional yesterday over some stuff and i am still feeling the same today!! :((

Oh god! I really want time to pass faster, this is really mentally torturous!

Alright gonna head to bed soon, got to wake up early for work tmr!

2010-09-16T13:37:00.002+08:00

I Hate Adapting To New Environments.

Haven't been blogging since i've started working.
Work was still alright but i was damn sian cos i had no friends as in everyone was new to me.
I am so shy that i don't even dare talking to them unless they approach me.
Hopefully things will start to get better and i won't have to be like this for this one month!
But i got to admit that the people here are nice. (:
Gonna spend a long weekend with baby including today!! ((:

2010-09-13T00:12:00.003+08:00

Be The One That I Can Count On.

Last friday, met baby in the evening.

Went bugis and caught the movie, The Inception and it sounded old now.

It was an awesome movie and a freaking long one.

The amazing thing was, i didn't fall asleep throughout the long movie which lasted for 2 and a half hours!

Had dinner at NYDC with baby and it was the first time i was dining there and once again i feel so sau ku! HAHA!

Initially, i thought that will be the only day i will meeting baby until next wed but no it wasn't.

Really had an enjoyable day with him, everything seemed so perfect that day. (:

Sat, dad's birthday but it was one of my worst day ever and so was dad's day!

I wouldn't want to elaborate here cos i'm pretty lazy now and i don't know where should i start from.

To sum it up, i just feel awful and sad about everything that had happened on saturday.

Despite going through all those shit, i still agreed Rainie's date to catch the movie, Vampire sucks in the evening.

The movie was at 11:40pm and we were super early for the movie that we were kind of bored while waiting.

So we decided to play some games at the arcade to waste time and yes it helped to let time pass faster!

The movie was funny and great!

Initially i thought it was a horror movie, according to Rainie.

Thank god it wasn't cos i'm really scared of horror movies.

Aftermath, took night rider home as it was much cheaper then taking a cab home.

As mentioned earlier, i had thought that it would be a boring sunday today without baby's company.

Luckily baby's event ended early, hence he was able to meet me and i was so happy. (:

He was so nice, last night he had only slept for 3 hours and despite his tiredness he still came to look for me.

His eyes were damn red when he met me.

However, he still went on to have dinner with my family.

Had an awesome day today too! (:

2010-09-09T15:17:00.001+08:00

Hey people, the post below was suppose to be dated 9 of sept!! (:

2010-09-08T23:48:00.003+08:00

You Don't Need Many Friends, Just A Few Whom Understands You Is Sufficient.

Hey people, exams are over and its officially holidays now!

I'm supposed to be posting this yesterday but my stupid internet connection just died on me as i started creating the post therefore only the front part of the post was saved as draft!

It really sucks man, hence i decided to delete everything and create a new one cos the saved draft only has like 5 lines of words when i wrote like 20 lines of words!

Anyway ystd after paper, went to clementi pizza hut to have lunch with TB22 and aftermath we had kbox session which was our usual hangout place.

As majority loves singing including myself! HAHA!

I really enjoyed myself totally and i will really miss hanging out with them and having them as a class.

They are really the best bunch people i've met.

They have made my poly life so interesting and fulfilling.

Thinking about each and everyone of them really makes me tear.

Thinking back on the first day of school till today, it has been six months yo!

I will never forget the lunch outing we use to have every wed after MAEC's tutorial at SIM and times when we stood back as a class to complete projects.

It's really an awesome class and i hope i will be able to get such nice people in my class the next sem.

TB22 simply ROCKS!

I am so looking forward to the chalet.

Alright, enough of TB22.

After kbox session with TB22, i headed down to meet baby at his place and something bad happened that totally affected baby's mood.

When i heard what had happened, i was totally taken back and i didn't know what to say or what to do.

However baby was a dear!

Though he was very moody for what had happened, he still tried his best not to ruin my day by smiling.

I was thinking about it on my way home and i literally teared.

Looking him at this state really upsets me and all i could do was to tell him, "baby i will always be here for you."

When i know it doesn't help a single bit.

I hope i could really do something for him and hopefully everything will be alright in no time!

2010-09-05T17:07:00.002+08:00

People Loves Lyrics That Best Describes Their Feelings

Currently, i'm feeling so tired but yet don't feel like sleeping.

Sounds contradicting but yea that's what i am feeling now.

Since i wont be sleeping i'll have to study then cos there's not much time to waste.

Last paper will be on wed which is BLAW!

It will be a tough one i suppose cos it's all about memorising and i think i will end up like how i studied for econs.

Getting all fret up and stressed up that YH and HL kept asking me to relax when i was telling them about how i felt before the paper.

Anyway, i will not be talking abt bmgt and econs paper cos its over and there's no pint talking about it.

All i can say is that i've put in my best effot, people around me may not think so but at least that's what i feel (:

Just created a new tumblr account and i think i will be neglecting my blog soon.

Tumblr seems kind of fun.

That's what everyone tells me and i think i should give it a try. HAHA!

Alright, i shall stop wasting time here and get on with BLAW!!

2010-09-01T23:04:00.002+08:00

Happy 14th monthsary!
Just got back home after meeting baby and had a very fulfilling dinner!
Can't wait for the exams to be over.
Have been studying these few days and i seriously feel like dying :(
Alright, i'm gonna stop here.

2010-08-27T01:00:00.003+08:00

Oh, So Memorable!

Haven't been studying for the whole day and i feel kind of guilty now :(

But well, the meet up with xiao juan, jane and chuiling really made my day!

It was a very memorable and an enjoyable one!

It has been 7 years since we last met and that was when i was in primary school.

I really miss those times we had in primary school.

We were all so naive and cute.

I really can't wait to meet them up again.

I'm starting to miss them now :(

Alright, gonna stop here!

I'm lazy.

2010-08-26T01:55:00.001+08:00

Baby, you'll just need to know how much i love you and that's enough.

Now i'm in bed but i suddenly have this sentence in mind and i think this is the best place to put.

Don't ask me why cos i don't know. Haha!

I'm so glad everything went back to normal and there were no differences from what i see!

Yesterday met up with babes and they told me alot and we shared alot like always (:

Alright, i'm gonna sleep now and though this month many things had happened but i think this is the best month, at least for now it is!

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2010-08-23T23:43:00.004+08:00

It Will Be You And Me Against The World.

I'm here not to pen down my thoughts but rather to post some funny photos which i had taken with baby today!

He was so reluctant to take pictures with me cos he doesn't really like to take photos and notice all his eyes were closed except in 1 picture!

2010-08-23T02:40:00.003+08:00

Sunshine Over The Rain.

Really don't understand why some people want to hold on to some things so tightly when it is not worth it at all?

Seriously don't understand all these people.

Yesterday night was awesome.

Headed down to rebel with Alicia.

Have not been meeting her for don't know how many months and the poor girl did slim down a little due to her tough hours of attachment.

It was great meeting her out again but another person is missing!

It will never be successful for the three of us to meet together, not that it's never successful on some occasions it was but it was very rare.

Many things happened yesterday and i felt so sorry towards baby.

He was so worried that he literally went insane like seriously.

Have never seen him so insane before.

He wasn't like that when i went the other time but well i hope i can curb the feeling of clubbing.

Took quite alot of pics with Alicia but the pics are with her so i have none with me therefore i will have to wait for her to send it to me then i'll post it up on fb (:

I love the pictures that i took with her.

I think i look the prettiest there but not in real life! :(

Usually i would be asleep by this time but because of my selfish mum i had no choice but to force myself to stay awake if possible.

I really felt so frustrated when i reached home.

I was so damn tired.

When i was on my way home, i was thinking that i could quickly get home and get my beautiful sleep but i came home and noticed that i can't!

This feeling totally sucks!

I'm gonna stop here though i've got many things to pen down but i dunno where to start.

Bye earthlings!

2010-08-19T13:29:00.002+08:00

2010-08-19T13:18:00.002+08:00

JUST GONNA STAND THERE AND WATCH ME BURN, BUT ITS ALRIGHT COS I LOVE THE WAY IT HURTS.

Suddenly had the urge to blog after so long.

Gonna stay home and hibernate today.

Hasn't been staying home for a long time but i got to admit that staying home is great especially when i am alone.

I can do whatever i want with zero disturbance!

The last few days wasn't a very pleasant one.

Somethings happened that brought back the painful past once again.

Don't know how long this will last but i have no confidence and faith in us anymore.

It's just not the same again.

For the first time i had sprained my leg so badly that i had to visit the chinese physician.

It was the worst fall in my life and had scratches on both my legs as well as my hand too.

It was partly because of you.

My dear friends had been nice all these while.

Being there for me as always (:

You guys should know who you are.

I just pray that what you are saying is not true.

I might appear to be alright on the outside but deep down its killing me.

2010-07-23T06:26:00.002+08:00

FEEL LIKE AN IMMORTAL NOW.

OMG! I can't believe that i could stay awake till now, which is 6:30am!

Stood up the whole night to finish up Bmgt project at gid's house and everyone slept a little here and there except me!

Normally, i would be the first to sleep at home but now its the opposite.

I'm feeling so happy and relieved now bcos i finished my DSS!

Initially, i sort of given up on that stupid function "solver" but as i persisted to figure it out, i finally got a solution.

I'm so happy now!

The feeling is even better then striking lottery.

On the other hand, bmgt is almost done just some touching up here and there.

Guess i wont be sleeping until tonight.

Hopefully i will be able to stay awake in school later.

This situation reminds me of my study session with the bitches.

When i was still in ITE taking my very last exam there which was just a few months back.

Still remember studying with them till 5 plus in the morning when exam was just a few hours later.

Really missed those times and the bitches.

The bitches seem to be quite busy recently, havent been hearing much from them.

Alright, i think i shall stop here!

2010-07-15T14:10:00.002+08:00

TIME WAIT FOR NO MAN.

Apparently i'm in school rushing through projects and for this whole entire week, it has been a norm for me.

Haven been staying back and going school early for project meetings.

I've never felt so stress in my entire life.

Thankfully baby was there to help me through and initially i wanted to accompany him this whole week but i didn't expect myself to be down with so many projects :(

Slept at 2am yesterday as i was editing video for my LMS project and as expected i overslept therefore i missed MAEC lecture this morning!

I'm feeling so sinful now.

I'm gonna lag behind :(

As i'm still down with project meeting, i had to skip bmgt lecture so that i could get it done.

But at the rate we're going now, i doubt we would be able to finish.

Alright, i am gonna stop here.

Ciao.

2010-07-08T00:11:00.004+08:00

YOUR LOVE IS MY DRUG.

Alright, shall take back the post i wrote 2 days back.

Perhaps at that time i was thinking too much.

Life isn't that bad afterall.

I know who are my true friends now and i hope i am right about them.

Low Poh Jen texted me today after reading my post and POH JEN...

This is for you.

Thanks for being there for me and i know you're a super good friend.

We went through lots together and i will never forget.

Be it sad or happy, we were always there for each other.

Never regret knowing you 2 years back and i hope you feel the same way too.

I LOVE YOU, LOW POH JEN!

Hopefully she will get to read this. (:

If she don't then its too bad.

She wont get to hear the good words that comes from me as i will never say that in front her as she is super thick skin.

She will start to fly if i were to say it infront of her. HAHA!

Didn't attend lessons today but i went back to school for PBL2.

Frankly speaking, i feel that PBL2 is not as tough as PBL1 as we got to set our own questions.

Many projects are due the following week and this term will be a fast one.

Had dinner with baby at BP and headed down to meet mr manager to pass him my work stuff.

I'm super happy that i am going to get done with it soon!

Won't have to go down anymore i hope (:

Though i'm happy that i wont have to work anymore but on the other side i'm sad :(

Because after next month, i might have to feed on grass.

My irritating mum is giving me monetary problems again!

I'd seen it coming long ago but i still decided to quit my job so i guess i had asked for it huh?

I really hope to get another job soon but not so tough like the one i had.

Its kind of difficult to get a job of my requirements.

I doubt i will be able to find it unless i have connections which i don't :(

I really don't know what i should do now.

Thank god, i've a nice bf and a nice bf's mum.

After she got to know about my situation, she did something that i was so shock!

She gave me a 100 bucks and ask me to tell baby if i don't have money.

I feel so bad taking her money.

She's really so much better then my mum.

I'm not being realistic here but my mum doesn't give a shit about me!

I was sick yesterday and when i told my parents that i wanted to see a doc, only my dad voiced out to ask if i had money to see whereas my mum just kept quiet!

Super fxcked up!

I seriously pity my dad, i hope my dad will be able to live till ripe age.

Can't afford to lose my dad.

He's really a noble and understanding father.

Though, at times i would quarrel with him and not talk a few days but ultimately i still love him.

2010-07-05T22:53:00.003+08:00

UNLOVED.

Its been a long time since i felt so emo.

Don't know what is wrong.

I think baby's presence did made a difference, perhaps i will be weeping in bed if i hadn't met him for the entire day.

I've never felt so bad for a pretty long time.

I thought those days were over but, NO!

It's back here once again.

Kind of sad to see people around you caring for each other except for you.

Maybe its because of my stupid thinking that made me felt so depressed!

It's like what i've done to get this kind of treatment?

Though i've been trying hard to console myself that having 4 people in your life who cares about you is good enough but to no avail the heart is not getting any better.

Am i just too greedy?

For now, the best solution is to stay away from that site and focus my mind on studies and bf.

I should show more care and concern towards baby.

Made him super sad and heart broken yesterday as he felt that i've been spending too much time with friends.

Perhaps, what is happening to me now is karma.

What goes around comes back around.

I've got many thoughts running through my mind now and its making me feel worst!<.br/>

I guess this is the most emo post ever!

Should just mind my own business in future.

Its just too much to take when people around you are not reacting to your needs when you will always try to be there for them.

Oh man, i really need a break!

I remember myself posting something like that a few months back and at that time i promised myself the same thing but here i am, back to square one.

It's easier said then done.

I'm not a good friend and i think my actions seems fake which led me to this state.

I just need some time alone.

2010-07-02T09:47:00.003+08:00

It's Time To Do Some Serious Thinking.

Surprisingly i'm up earlier then i'm supposed to.

This week was quite a depressing week.

Got back results for CT and it wasn't comforting at all :(

Perhaps, i'm just unlucky.

Hopefully, i would be able to do better during the EOY exam which i doubt i will.

Alright, it sounds kind of contradicting here.

Anyway, mon met up with my lovely friends and its always nice to meet up with them.

Tracy and ede was nice enough to meet me all the way at NP then went to KKH to visit salwa.

It was the best day as finally all of us got meet each other after so long and it was full attendance! I LIKE (:

Another meet up is going to come soon!

Yesterday was me and baby's special day but sadly he wasn't able to meet me so well, we got to postpone it to today.

Got and did things for him, hopefully he will like it (:

This is what i had done and i really miss baby's long hair!

Oh well, its just one more year to go and baby will be back with his long hair i suppose! HAHAHA!

2010-06-25T00:00:00.003+08:00

I NEED MORE TIME FOR RELAXATION!

Made my way to school to get my laptop back to life and MAEC project meeting as well!

I thought yesterday was considered one of my worst day as my laptop died on me and i couldn't log in to my account. In the evening when i was in the toilet, about to pee, my phone slipped off my hand and down it went into the toilet bowl!

Ede and Xw were so shocked when i came out of the toilet telling them that i had dropped my phone into the toilet bowl.

I was considered lucky as they didn't laugh at me at that moment but after that they ede started to think back and she said that it was so not her as she didn't laugh at me in the toilet when i told her about it.

But well, they laughed at me on my fb wall!

What nice friends i have! LOL.

Anyway yesterday was a super fun day, got to meet up with sj, ede, xw and sallywawa. (:

Oh well, back to what i was saying just now.

Today was my worst day as i reached school at 1:15pm and left school at 10pm!

For the first time, i felt so stress during project meetings.

For the first time, i used so much of my brain that i had slight headache.

For the first time, i left school at such a timing.

Seriously, MAEC is a crazy module!

Got to get over and done with it as fast as possible, its killing our brain cells!

All of us were like brain dead when we left!

Its friday already!

I'm having mixed feelings now.

I'm happy because i'll get to see baby soon, sad because there are only three more days left before school starts and thats where all my time for relaxation will be gone!

Alright, i think i should just be optimistic and look at the bright side of the picture so that time will pass faster. HAHA!

It's time to stop before this post gets too wordy.

Nights, tomorrow will be a great day. (:

2010-06-22T23:36:00.006+08:00

ITS ENDING SOON!

Its the 2nd week of holidays now and i have not had enough fun!

Seriously miss last week so much.

Mon i was sick, having bad sore throat and i was supposed to go kbox with boon in the end we changed to another day so i stayed home the whole day.

Tues met up with sj and ede for lunch. Always so happy to meet them and talk to them. (:

Went to town with ede aftermath and met up with tracy for awhile as she had work after that.

Wed was the best day of my life!

Met up with tracy and sj for dinner at ion.

Had a very expensive dinner. LOL!

Went Rebel with Ivy, Sandy and tracy babe after dinner with sj.

We really enjoyed ourselve to the max and we left at 5am.

Hopefully there will be a next time soon. HAHA!

Thurs was singing session at kbox with boon.

She got me a shorts at forever 21 as my belated birthday gift.

Love it to the max (:

Had a very enjoyable day with her!

Fri, ede was so sweet!

She accompanied to UOB and she left after that.

In the evening met up with baby, went to kovan and saw boon!

Sat and sun is baby's day!

Gonna upload the pictures we took last week.

Ok, the photos look funny now but i dont care cos i'm lazy to change it. HAHA!

Yesterday went to catch She's out of my league with TB22 peeps and it was an awesome show though some scenes were quite disturbing. HAHA!

Had pizza hut for dinner and starbucks to sit down.

Went istana park aftermath to have an uno game and it was a hilarious one!

Kbox with huilin, cherry, jovin, aaron and jiaqi.

Had a very great singing session.

Both me and huilin was quite tempted by the clothes that was at the pasar malam but we didn't get it eventually as we were afraid that we would regret! LOL.

Here are the photos for this 2 days (:

Alright, I shall stop here!

Meanwhile, i only have 5 more days to enjoy before school officially starts :(

2010-06-10T12:12:00.003+08:00

Should I be happy or sad?

Yay! I'm finally able to login to blogger.

Have been studying for the past few days but i got to admit that it wasn't intensive enough because me and sandy was still not in the mood for studies.

However. though we didn't had the mood but at least we completed the first three lectures alrdy.

Quite relieved and stress at the same time as today will be the last day for us to mug for blaw paper which is tomorrow and we have 2 more lectures to cover and lots of revision to do :(

This could be the worst day of my life but i dont now if i should be happy or sad.

I'm sad because today will be a very stressful day and happy because tmr will be our last paper and its time for us to enjoy! Meet up with all my lovelies (:

I'll be leaving house in 30 mins time to meet up with sandy babe for studies again but its quite fun though at least i am not studying alone and we do study when we're together (:

Side track now, last sun went to plaza sing with sj and we went cine for KBOX and it was a very enjoyable one though we spent like 30 bucks.

I didn't regret a single bit because we really enjoyed ourselves!

Took quite a few photos, will post it up later.

On tuesday met up with her at novena for lunch and she was so damn happy.

Poor girl is going through so much in her work.

But i'm quite happy at least i brighten her day that day (:

Very soon i will be meeting up with tracy, ede and this time i will make it that all 3 of us will go for lunch with SJ.

SJ will definitely be super happy!

I love to see my friends being happy and not forgetting crys, alicia and boon!

They are super nice friends.

Will be meeting up with boon next mon!

I'm contented enough to have friends like them and a wonderful boyfriend too (:

For once, my life is perfect!

2010-05-20T17:33:00.006+08:00

I NEED A BREAK!

I'm feeling so stress recently.

School has been so stress that i feel like giving up sometimes.

Its only the 5th week of school and so many projects are assigned to us.

Next week is e-learning week and i thought that i could finally get some rest but no!

I'll be even more busy than ever!

Gonna meet up for several projects next week and it sucks to have a free rider in your group.

But nvm, i shall just tolerate and make do with it.

I guess there will be a class outing next week but its still not cfm yet.

Quite looking forward to it though!

I love TB22, its filled with fun people and nice people (:
Yesterday, was a day when i really felt stress and tired.

To the extent, where by i really feel like giving up every single thing cos i was seriously exhausted and stress from coping up with school work, projects and work.

But i guess its just a phase of life and i got to bear with it.

Life is never easy and fair.

So we should think of people who are worst than us.

Actually, i'm not unlucky.

I'm already quite fortunate (:

Gonna have this mindset in mind from now on so that life would be so much more easier(:

Anyway, went st james with xw, shaff and 4 of xw's friends last sat and it was superb!

Its been a very long time since i clubbed with xw but it was a short one.

I miss the fun lah and i hope that i will be able to organise another one but sadly ede, wawa and tracy couldnt join us.

Hopefully, there will be a day where all of us could go tgt.

Overall, it was a fun and memorable day (:

By the way, before we headed for st james in the evening, we celebrated SJ's birthday in advance and i must say that it was a successful one!

I was so happy that day as finally i've got a chance to meet all of them as a group after so long!

I really miss ITE life with them by my side.

That is why we must always treasure what you have cos you may not get a chance to once its lost.

I love all of them ttm!!

Looking at all these pictures really makes me feel happy.

Its so nice to have friends like them!

And not forgetting my great boyfriend who cheers me up at times when i'm down, looks after me when i'm sick, spur me on when i'm at the verge of giving up.

LOVE THEM ALL TO THE MAX (:

2010-05-06T00:55:00.001+08:00

Felt kind of sad earlier on over some issues which i dont which to mention over here.

But i'm feeling so much better now bcos of Low Poh Jen.

She likes to blabber lots of nonsense but no doubt all those nonsense did cheered me up (:

Met up with sharon, sandy and peckhoon today after school.

Sharon wanted me to donate blood tgt with her but i didn't bcos i was kind of scared. Haha!

Anyway, sharon couldnt donate so luckily i didn't go for it orelse i might be donating alone. Lol!

Sharon went off aftermath, while i went to complete some project stuff, sandy and peck hoon used their lappys.

Took quite alot of photos with them and i kept laughing at peck hoon's expression!

She is damn funny lah!

It was so nice meeting up with them and having lunch tgt (:

Apparenttly, i didn't work today bcos i wanted to study but well i didnt study much either cos i wasted lots of time sleeping and doing nothing.

I feel so lousy now :(

Ok, i need to sleep now,got to wake up early for school tmr.

goodnight(:

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2010-05-02T13:42:00.003+08:00

Hey people!
I actually wanted to wake up late today but i think the clock in my body is not use to afternoon timings.
I woke up at 11am when i actually wanted to wake up at 1pm as i slept at 2am ystd and of cos the cause was due to watching drama! HAHA!
I'm done with season 1 and 2 but the stupid website doesnt allow me to watch season 3 so i got to find other sources to watch it.
So currently, i'm downloading it now and its super slow :(
Anyway ystd was a day for us to rmb but apparently i didn't notice it until i ask baby what was the date.
Its been 10 months like super fast.
me: "So fast lah, 10 months alrdy! So how?"
Baby: "Break up."
me: "Ok lor, reach 12 months can break up alrdy."
baby: "Ya, you go and die."
He wanted to disturb me by saying break up and in the end i was the one who disturbed him. LOL!
I was telling baby that its kind of weird that we could last till now despite the fact that we always quarrel and he told me its bcos we would miss each other when we do not meet. HAHA!
Which is quite true.
Alright, gonna meet baby later and get my fringe cut as i'm very irritated with my long fringe these few days and baby is gonna get his hair cut too.

I really feel very fortunate to know you.
You are ther one who brought about the changes in my life.
No doubt, my life has improved alot ever since i know you.
Though we quarrelled umpteen times but we still love each other deeply.
I hope this will last and thats what you promised me too.
I love you, baby.

2010-04-27T08:29:00.003+08:00

Its Just A Way Of Life.

Apparently, i've been quite busy with school and work so hadn't got the time to blog.
Well, now i have the time to blog is bcos i have 15 mins more before school start and there's nothing i can do within 15 mins so blogging is the best thing i could do now. LOL.
I wish i could reach this early every morning lah.
Felt super tired this morning but i had no choice.
Got to drag myself up from bed orelse i would be late for school again and i fell asleep in the bus.
Its super uncomfortable to sleep in the bus.
As everyone will be looking at you and the bus will be jerking.

School was fine.
Made lots of new friends and they're very nice people.
Super friendly and most of them didn't believe that i was 19 cos they said that i looked super young. HAHA!
Gonna rush home this afternoon to get a nap before heading out for work again..
Can't wait to meet ede tmr, its like finally she got the time to eat Tom Yam! LOL.

For now, i'm missing baby again.
Will only get to see him this fri which is super long to me now :(
Can the time pass faster pls??

Alright, i'm gonna stop here now!
Time's up!

2010-04-19T01:32:00.001+08:00

Apparently, i am having difficulties to get to sleep. Have been trying very hard to get to sleep since 12:30 and well i couldn't!

It's damn frustrating when i need to sleep but i can't.

I wish i could have a remedy to get me to sleep.

Am i sufferring from insomnia or something??

Ok, nvm since i can't get to sleep i shall just blog more.

Hopefully i will feel tired after this.

i was very happy to receive messages from my babes, wishing me luck for my firat day of school later.

Suddenly missed them so much!

i would really hate myself
If i were to forget them!

They are the nicest friends i could ask for.

I'm just so thankful to have known them.

I love them lots!

missed baby alot too.

Not sure why do i miss him so much this week.

Though he have a bad temper and a foul mouth but he is the only person who really cares alot for me.

Looking from the way he worries for me every single day makes
Me feel so touched and i hope things will still remain like this few years down the road.

I just feel so grateful for every single thing i have in life.

Great friends, great boyfriend and a
Not so bad family (:

There is nothing more i could ask for.

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2010-04-15T01:22:00.001+08:00

Suddenly felt very emotional and had this sudden urge to blog.

I just don't understand why do i get so emotional when i see things like that!?

Its like others can close one eye to that, but why can't i?

i thought things would get better when the air is clear but well, for a period of time it was better but now i feel so dumb and stupid!

Why should i let such things bother me?

It's impossible to have the best of both world!

I seriously hate this shit that i'm going thru!

Just stick with those whom appreciates me will do.

I'm just feeling so contradicting now.

You'll never know how terrible i feel

Now i know its never gonna be the same again despite taking the initiative.

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2010-04-13T00:27:00.003+08:00

Another Day Out In The Sun.

Last friday, went swimming cum tanning with ede bitch!

Had quite a great time chatting and tanning at the same time.

Weather wasn't that bad that day as we still got tanned after that (:

We spent quite alot of time in the toilet as you know girls are crazy over taking pictures. LOL!

Took quite alot of funny pictures.

Still got quite a few but i think these few are the nice ones!

Friday night was out drinking with my working friends and baby.

Puked quite a few times cos didn't drink for quite sometime alrdy and the place was nice and it so happens that it was baby's coach's pub (:

Sat another drinking session at boat quay an impromptu one.

Baby got me a 30 bucks shirt just bcos of that. LOL!

Drinking session on sat was quite a waste of money as i didn't felt like i had drank anything when i got home just felt super tired as the day before only got to sleep for 3 hours before heading out to help dad!

As for today, went swimming again with ede bitch!

I'm falling in love with swimming suddenly.

Its a relaxing and healthy sport.

The weather was nice today too(:

Gonna stop here now cos ede bitch is hurrying me as she wanna see my pretty face now! LOL!

Bye earthlings.

2010-04-07T22:34:00.004+08:00

Flu Flu Go Away Come Again Another Day.

Caught When In Rome with Alicia babe ystd and the show was superb!
Very hilarious and the ending was sweet (:
Had Aston for lunch and its cheap and nice.
Alicia has always been asking me to go there and eat but it was my first time there though.
Once again, i bought stuff ystd.
Never failed to buy stuff when i am out with her. HAHA!
Anyway had an enjoyable day out!

Tanning session this afternoon with anne but it was a bad one as the sun was not out :(
It was fun still, had lots of things to crap about.
Sadly audrey couldn't join us as she is working now :(
Anne gave me my birthday gift that she and aud had bought and well its 2 dresses!
Both dresses are nice.
Seems like this year is a dressy year for me.
All my gifts were dresses but i love all of it! Nice nice(:
Met up with baby aftermath and we had prata and durian for dinner!
Ok, i'm gonna continue catching my drama now.
Bye peeps(:

2010-04-04T23:22:00.006+08:00

I'm Loving It!

Finally i'm not lazy to blog today.

Went to expo IT Fair today and it was super packed.

Got my new lappy at a super cheap rate!

I'm loving it man(:

Thanks for baby's help for comparing the specifications for me as i'm an idiot towards electronics and my parents don't know much either so the whole time baby was looking out for me and explaining to dad the differences.

It's time to blog about my birthday celebration that i was mentioning ystd!

On 30th mar met up with Alicia at dohby ghaut and she was late.

Waited for her for quite awhile but i shall forgive her as i'm a very nice friend. HAHA!

And crys didn't came along as she had projects to be completed.

Was quite upset when she told me that she couldn't join us.

Wanted to train to orchard but Alicia insisted to walk there so as a nice friend of cos i agreed to walk there despite the hot weather. Haha!

As we walked out of Plaza Sing i saw someone super familiar and i thought my eyes was playing tricks on me but as i took a closer look...

It was crys!!

I was super happy and shocked to see her there and at that point of time she still told me that she was on her way to meet her friends for projects and i was quite doubtful abt that.

On the other hand, Alicia didn't say anything and i knew something was not right!

In the end, the both of them burst out into laughters and said that it was actually a surprise for me and i was super happy!

Aftermath, we went to Far East to have our shopping spree and they didnt bought anything from there while i got myself a jumper and a pair of sandals! (:

Headed down to Ion as crys and Alicia wanted to go nulook to buy wedges.

Alicia bought it but crys didn't as her size was not available and she was super sad.

But well, she got it now. HAHA!

The both of them was funny, they asked me if i want to eat ice cream and i said ok but guess what!

We didn't had ice cream, we went to wisma for cake at bakerzinc instead! LOL!

They celebrated my birthday there for me and they got me 2 dresses! Love it to the max(:

Here are some pictures.

I headed for work aftermath and i was so happy after meeting out with them.

After work i noticed that my other babes did not text me to tell me what time to meet on 31st so i texted ede to ask if we're meeting the next day and her reply was, "Should be.." after which she told me that she had quarrelled with her dad and i sensed something was not right but after awhile she called me in a very sad tone and told me what had happened between her and her dad and she said that she wanted to meet me at bishan despite having to wait for an hour plus before i could reach bishan.

At that point of time, i've already sensed something fishy going on as ede is not such a person who would bother others with her problems.

On the way back home, tracy suddenly called me and i kept laughing when i talked to her.

Somehow it was bcos i've already sensed something wrong but well after meeting up with ede the fishy feeling was gone as her eyes were red and i thought she was crying before that.

Can't deny that her acting skills were lousy as at that time i was quite convinced with it. LOL!

While we were talking halfway, sj and tracy suddenly appeared behind me with a cake and i was so surprised!

I was really very happy at that time and not long after salwa called to wish me happy birthday.

So sweet of her(:

I'm so happy that they did so much for me.

And bcos of me they had to waste money on cab fares, i'm really very touch babes!

On the other hand, xw and shaff couldn't join us as shaff's mum was rushing him and xw was quite tight financially so didn't get to see them but i'm still happy that they came down to get the cake and stuff! Thanks loves(:

I love all the presents and especially the super big birthday card that they made for me.

It was the best birthday surprise ever.

Reached home at about 2am that day :D

Feeling so happy the entire day that ede kept saying that the whole void deck was filled with my laughter.

Never felt so happy before. HAHA!

Photos can be viewed on fb as i'm quite lazy to upload now. Haha!

Two surprises in a day, i really love it!

I love all of them to the max!

2010-04-03T13:04:00.001+08:00

Had been feeling rather sick these few days.

However, my birthday celebration was a very great and memorable one(:

Thanks to all my loves!

which consists of crys, alicia, edeline,shujuan, tracy,xw and shaf!

they have made my special day a really special one.

ok, i shall blog more abt it another
Day perhaps bcos i'm quite lazy now. Haha!

gonna meet baby later at causeway point and watching clash of the titans with baby in the evening.

I shall stop here for now!

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2010-03-30T00:36:00.007+08:00

DRINK DRANK DRUNK.

As promised, i will blog about what i had done during the weekends.

Sat met up with baby at outram but i was late, all thanks to baby's lousiness in time management. HAHA!

Went to check in at this hotel hotel called 1929.

Quite a unique name but sounds quite cheapo though.

However, its not! The hotel goes for vintage style and its damn cool.

There is a balcony also and a bath tub at the balcony too.

Sounds funny huh?

Anyway aftermath, we went to catch a movie at cathay called ,"How to train a dragon".

The movie was great!

Thought the storyline would be kind of childish as its actually a cartoon but no, it was not.

It was quite nice actually, enjoyed the movie (:

Due to financial constraints we could only get alcohol from cold storage as it is cheaper compared to ktvs and clubs.

Got 2 bottles of alcohol for only 40 bucks! Cheap huh?

Initially wanted to have our dinner at carls junior but the service there was like shit and baby was so pissed off with them till he went over and claimed for a refund as they made us wait for 12 mins and worst still they got our order sent wrongly.

We were right infront of them and they didnt notice that we had number plates on the table!

In the end, we left unhappily and went to chinatown to have our dinner and it was already 11pm at that time.

All thanks to carls junior's shit service! HAHA!

Headed back to hotel to drink and i drank more than baby!

As a result i puked like dont know how many times and baby said it was freaking smelly and i rmb that he kept asking me to brush my teeth each time i puke! HAHA!

Despite all the drinking and puking, i still woke up in the morning to accompany baby for breakfast and i was feeling nauseous.

The whole of sunday i was feeling so sick and weak so was baby.

But it was all worth it cos we enjoyed ourselves totally! (:

Gonna meet up with Alicia babe tmr!

Finally i can join her for shopping session(:

I hope my other babes do not forget me.

Meeting them on wed and baby too. LOVES!

Gonna sleep soon, goodnight everyone!

2010-03-28T22:59:00.001+08:00

Just a short entry for today as i am
Just trying out something. Haha!

Have been feeling so sucky for the entire day today bcos i am having a bad flu and i felt so weak and tired for the whole day :(

However had a very great weekend spent with baby(:

Perhaps, i will blog about it tmr bcos currently i'm quite drained out alrdy. Lol!

I shall end here(:

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2010-03-26T02:27:00.003+08:00

Rainbow Comes After The Rain.

Went for my follow up in the morning at bedok and headed down to PS to meet my babes but i was too early.
Sat there for around an hour before i got to meet them and luckily i had Iphone to entertain me for that hour or else i think i would be dead bored!
Had lots of laughter and joy with them (:

Headed down to work aftermath and initially was quite sick of walking block due to some incidents on the previous day but after work i felt so happy as it wasn't like the previous day :D
After work, followed manager and his friends for supper.
We ate so much of food and I'm so bloated now!
One incident that ruined our supper was eating a 57 bucks durian!!
We felt so cheated as we thought it was 23 bucks for one but ended up it was 57 big bucks!
I've never eaten such an expensive durian in my whole life!
Wonder what's so special with that durian??
Made of gold??
But well, the other food was still yummy though so shall let bygones be bygones.
Gotta be more cautious in future.

Baby will be out later and i'm missing him so much this week :(
Can't wait to meet him later!
Though sometimes he really pisses me off and upsets me but ultimately he's still the one i love.
As i know, no matter what he do he had his reasons for doing so and the main reason is bcos he cares for me(:

It's time to get my beauty sleep as its 3am already!!

2010-03-23T00:10:00.005+08:00

Beware Of Karma.

Hmm..

Apparently this is my 2nd post for the month, how cool can that be!

Ok, i think i'm just behaving alittle crazy here but well had been rather lazy to blog for this one whole month.

This month was quite a great one.

I realised i had many nice friends around me.

Many things happened too but yea everything is over and most importantly i'm happy with my life now.

Though there are still imperfections in my life but i've learnt to accept them and cherish the people around me.

Had my hair dyed at ede's place and we were both quite satisfied with the outcome though mine was not as obvious as ede's but at least its better then the past few times(:

While waiting for the dye to get into our roots we had our hair buned up just like nonyas and we look super funny!

We waited for 40 mins but it was pretty fast bcos we kept talking throughtout the 40 mins.

After washing off we kept comparing the colour with he ones we had last time and of cos we kept trying to make ourselves better by saying "got colour lah, got colour lah". HAHA!

We headed to AMK hub for kfc, shared one set of 2 piece chicken meal and it was just nice.

Not that fattening! Lol!

Aftermath we had photo taking sessions to see if our hair colour was obvious, so here is the result!

Apparently, mine wasn't that obvious as compared to ede's but at least its comforting to know that its obvious under the sun! HAHA!

Went for window shopping at AMK hub and Ede hept stopping me to buy things bcos she knows that i need to save money.

So sweet of her! LOL!

I went off for work at 6pm while ede headed back home(:

Another fun day spent with ede!

On a side note, 27th mar is cancelled.

I shall stop here and i miss my bf :(

Nice to know that he had been posted to somewhere so much heavenly compared to the previous one(:

Goodnight earthlings!

2010-03-03T00:32:00.002+08:00

Finally Found A meaning In Life.

Exams its getting nearer and nearer!
Everyone is so stressed up over exams, including myself.
Its the last lap to go and i can't afford to fail again.
Somehow feel that i won't be able to do well for this last lap :(
I'm so scared.

Have been feeling rather happy these few days.
Not quite sure either but i just feel so blissed.
Though we quarrelled very frequently but we still love each other that much.
Sometimes i'm wondering if this will last..
Don't really have confidence in everlasting love now.
Perhaps its bcos of the past that i've gone through.
But i shall just put those memories behind and keep my life going on(:
I love you, baby.

2010-02-26T00:37:00.001+08:00

TAKE A STEP BACK.

Went to see doctor after school and its like the third time i am seeing for this month.

Wasted so much money this month on doctors!

Hopefully this time it will work.

Head down to site aftermath and was quite pissed off!

Dont wish to address this matter here but luckily baby was there to let me vent my anger though not physically. Haha!

But it still made me feel so much better(:

I just hate people who doesn't give me respect!

Reached home and i thought i could eat something before sleeping bcos i've only eaten one meal for the whole day but who knows!?!?

Just bcos of something stupid i don't have the mood to eat already.

Can't you guys just take a step back each?

Its so frustrating when i see things like that happening.

You guys are adults but acting like a small kid.

It takes two hands to clap but both of them are not cooperating.

Shall stop here.

Not much mood to blog today.

2010-02-21T22:19:00.002+08:00

ITS SIMPLY JUST ME.

Weekends was quite fun.
Went drinking again on sat with baby, ede and mervyn.
I drank quite alot but didnt puke and its an awful feeling!
Baby sent me back to bishan then to his place and in total it was only 21 bucks. Damn cheap!
Thinking back about what baby said was quite true.
I always think of giving the best that i could to the people around me when i don't even think for myself.
Everytime i will try my very best to be a good friend but in the end do people give a damn about me?
No? Each time i will only feel so disappointed by the little things that i see.
People might think its nothing much but to me it matters alot.
Perhaps i should just listen to baby.
Just care for him and myself bcos i know he will always be there.
Like what he said, Its impossible for me to make eveyone happy.
I'm a human, i have feelings too.
At least if i don't do that i wouldn't feel so dissappointed and i guess i will feel happier.
I feel so confused right now :(

I miss baby again, he is the only one who understands me and the one who cares for me the most.
Life would be a disaster without him.
I LOVE YOU.

2010-02-19T00:45:00.002+08:00

I FEEL SO OUT, DON'T FEEL PART OF IT.

Haven't been blogging for quite a long time.
This year chinese new year was quite sucky to me.
Bcos the feel wasn't really here, don't know why either.
However, this chinese new year was quite different compared to the past years.
For this year, second day of CNY met up with ede, xw, baby and merv for drinking!
But poor xw sprained her ankle and ede had a big bruise on her arm without knowing how she knock herself or when she hit herself! HAHA!
Overall, it was quite a fun night(:
Didn't had much ang baos this year but i'm satisfied already.

Exams are approaching real soon and i guess everyone is mugging hard for this final paper.
I hope me and my clique can do well for this final paper(:

I'm very happy to have found this group of friends (i hope you guys know who you are), they are really great friends.
They are the ones who will be there to go through thick and thin with me and they will never fail to make me smile when i'm down.
True friends will always stick with you till the end no matter what.
Love them all(:

Its friday once again and of course other than my great friends i have a great boyfriend too!
It's time to meet him and i always look forward to it(:

Shall end here.

2010-02-04T22:16:00.004+08:00

You'll Never Know HOw Great Power Of Love Is.

Next week, application for poly will be open for us and now my mind is in a whirl.
Not sure of what course i want to get into and what i am really afraid of is whether i could get in and what am i goona do if it fails.
Am i gonna continue studying or just get out to work?
Have been discussing alot regarding this issue with my clique and yea of cos all of us hopes to get into poly and we don't know where we should go if we cant get in.
Hopefully the result will be positive.
Shall look at the bright side(:
On a side note, i'm happy that i am able to come this far.
Thinking of the first day i enter the school till today, i felt happy and satisfied.
Though at one point i almost wanted to give up but the friends around me spurred me on(:

Met baby earlier on and of cos was super happy to meet him.
Seriously, missed him so much for the past few days.
I promise this weekend will not be like last weekend.
Had so much fun with baby.
I was like so hyperactive and i told baby that i'm hypertension when i wanted to say hyperactive.
I thought he didn't noticed that i said wrongly but he did!
And he laughed at me :(
Gonna meet him again tomorrow!
We've got so many places to go during the weekends(:

He can never look normal when taking pictures with me! Haha!

Gonna end here :D

2010-01-27T13:38:00.003+08:00

Argghh!!
So frustrating.
I typed a whole lot of shit and now its gone.
I shall not blog anymore.
Don't want to rewrite all over again!

Baby is the best ever.
No one cares for me as much as you do.
Thanks baby.
I LOVE YOU.

2010-01-22T02:03:00.005+08:00

Had accounting CA2 today and i feel that its easier then all the questions that I had done(:
went to school just for the CA which lasted for an hour only.
Have been eating very little recently and ede thought that I didn't had money to eat bcos in the past I was always like that.
But this time round its different.
I really didn't had the appetite to eat.
Don't know why this will happen, perhaps its bcos of some things which really upsets me.
I just wish life could be a little fairer.
Since young I love to use the word 'unfair', till now I still do. love to use it but hate to experience it.

Yay! its friday once again and in less than 24 hours I will get to see baby (:
Though I had just met him on wed but I still miss him so much!

Ok, need to sleep real soon as there's school tmr and its like 2am already!
oh gosh!

2010-01-19T11:51:00.002+08:00

WE'RE MISSING OUT SO MUCH IN LIFE.

That was just a random statement that came to my mind. Haha!
Miss baby so much and there are still 3 more days to go beofre i can see him again.
Hopefully he will have nights out this week and provided that he will be able to pass his test and come out for nights out.
So far he hadn't come out for a single nights out yet as he failed the last few tests.
Recently, had some arguments with baby over a minor issue and now we shall just stop addressing the matter bcos its not worth out time arguing over such issues.

Woke up early in the morning and here comes the thing that i hate the most.
As a result, i woke up half an hour earlier then expected and i was prepared at 9am when my lesson starts at 10am.
Sharon woke up early too so we met earlier and reached school at ard 940am.
Don't know what has got into me.
Suddenly so punctual for school and work these few weeks.
But its a good thing(:
Its time to stop!
Bye earthlings.

2010-01-15T23:13:00.003+08:00

WEEKENDS ARE HERE ONCE AGAIN!

Had a pre birthday celebration at a void deck near salwa's house.

It was supposed to be celebrated at one of the void decks near our school but as usual salwa didn't come to school so we had to go over to her house to surprise her.

Edeline told her that she is going over to her grandma's house so at the same time can pass her some notes and she really belived!

As a result, she was so shocked when she saw me and sj holding the cake. Haha!

Glad that everything went well.

Most importantly, salwa like the card that we made for her and the gift the we bought for her(:

Her son is so cute. Haha!

Apparently, there are still quite a few photos that i wanna upload but blogger is so damn lag.

So i am not gonna wait.

More photos in fb(:

Overall, it was quite a successful celebration!

Met baby in the evening and it was so nice seeing him again after 5 long days!

Glad to see that he is getting along well with my family(:

Gonna turn in for bed now.

Nights earthlings.

2010-01-13T13:43:00.002+08:00

Weekends Just pass so quickly!

Had a very enjoyable weekend with baby(:
Went drinking with baby and mervyn at one ktv at raffles place.
3 of us drank one bottle of chivas and a few of glasses of beer.
Got quite drunk aftermath which resulted me in puking thrice but didn't puke much.
Next day woke up, me and baby was so tired but we had to drag ourselves out from bed bcos we had to make our way down to site.
Settled some stuff at site and we headed down to my house as my house is nearer to baby's camp.
Went my house to slack awhile and had chicken rice for dinner.
Baby left for camp at ard 915pm and that's the part i hate the most :(
But nvm cos time will pass so quickly with school and work everyday(:

Had a hair cut 2 days back and i think it was much better then before.
Took some photos with ede after that and our fringe look alike! HAHA!
Ok, gotta stop here.

Baby, i miss you so much.
I'm so looking forward to meet you again this firday!
I LOVE YOU.

2010-01-07T01:09:00.002+08:00

ANY IDEA ON HOW TO LOSE WEIGHT EFFORTLESSLY?

I'm feeling so fat now so one of my resolutions for 2010 will be losing weight! Haha.
Today was quite a stressful day.
More and more tedious jobs are coming my way.
I'm gonna balance both work and studies at the same time(:

I miss baby so so much!
I hope i will get to see him tonight.
I'll pray hard that he will have nights out tonight(:
I need to meet him so badly :(

Ok, its time for bed once again.
Bye earthlings.

2010-01-05T00:22:00.003+08:00

Fun Yet Tiring Day Spent.

Its the first day of school for many today.
Did nothing much in school and i think most of the time i had been playing games and talking nonsense! LOL!
Miss Lam didn't teach anything today instead she crapped with us for an hour and dismissed us!

Met up with Alicia at PS after going home to change.
Initially, she didn't wanna meet us cos she hurt her toe last sat and i was damn sad :(
But after that she decided to come and meet me cos she missed us(:
Aftermath we headed down to SP to meet up with crys and had our dinner there and guess what!?
Its kfc again!!
I swear i am gonna gain freaking lots of weight this year and baby is complaining that i'm fat!
But i know that he still loves me that much even if i were to grow fatter(:
The three of us had so much to share with each other and its always damn fun and relaxed sharing every single thing with them!
I just love them so much mans!!
We're gonna find time to meet up again very soon.
Though it was merely 2 hrs of meet up, i'm already happy enough(:

Headed down for work after that and finally settled the heavy loads that is weighing down on me.
My mind feels so much lighter now!

Though there are flaws in my life but somehow i'm quite statisfied with my life already(:
Gonna shut myslef away from the devil.

2010-01-02T23:58:00.003+08:00

Don't Wanna Waste Every Single Minute That I Have With You.

I slept at 5:38am this morning and woke up at 9am!

As i had went to drink. Haha!

Went to help my dad after that and surprisingly i wasn't that tired.

I seemed to be more energectic instead. LOL!

Baby came to find me after helping my dad and he was late but i forgave him as he wasn't at fault either(:

Head back home to change and stuff.

Aftermath left for our movies, Alvin and The Chipmunks at plaze singapura and we almost wasted one ticket!

The movie was quite funny and the singings were damn adorable(:

But baby said that such movies are not worth the money to watch in cinemas. Haha!

Had some misunderstandings with baby but well everything is cleared now!

Don't feel like blogging anymore.

Shall let the pics do the talking now(:

Thats the end of my post!

Its time for bed(:

2009-12-31T00:22:00.003+08:00

Everyday Is Quite A Chore!

Woke up in the morning bcos of the stupid incoming calls and the whole day i stayed awake to answer calls!
What a bore!
Nothing much to do at home, can't really sleep bcos the moment i close my eyes and there goes my phone!
Ringing Ringing and Ringing!

Left for work at ard 530pm and i was late cos initially i am supposed to meet the others at 6pm so i pushed back the timing to 630pm instead and i wasn't the latest still.
Settled down at the void deck and settled lots of shit.
Was texting baby at the same time and he asked me to packet kfc for him as he was craving for it.
We ate kfc like every week he book out and i swear its damn fattening!
Kept texting him and as i was abt to reply one of his text, he appeared right infront of me!
I was so damn shock!
As i thought that he will be booking out only tmr.
Aftermath, we headed down to have our kfc, as what i had mentioned earlier, baby had cravings for it.

Baby was so sweet today.
First time he made me so shock and happy.
I was really very happy when i saw him and he still lied to me that its nights out not book out.
Think i stupid. LOL!
Anyway, thanks baby and I LOVE YOU (:

2009-12-29T15:23:00.001+08:00

2009-12-29T01:40:00.004+08:00

You're Irreplaceable!

Met baby early in the morning to accompany him for his physiotherapy session and he is so cute!
Finally, everything went well today.
I'm a happy girl now and i have a lovely bf(:
Went to have kfc after his physiotherapy session and ate till damn full.
I hate that kind of feeling, it makes me feel like i have grown fatter! (which is the truth though, i am just trying to hide the fact)
Met boon at AMK and i made her rush down bcos baby had last min changes but luckily boon was able ro reach on time(:
Baby trained down to AMK tgt with me and took bus back to his camp from there.
Boon said that baby looked cute with botak head! LOL!
Baby will be thrilled to know this.

I'm gonna miss him for the next three days and yay~ness!!
Cos baby will not be on duty on sat, which means he can accompany me for 4 full days(:

Got myself a pair of heels bcos it was so damn cheap and its hard to resist temptations especially with boon ard
I will never fail to get something when i am out with her.
Is that a good or bad thing? LOL!
What a wonderful day spent with her, talkng abt anything in the world.
Suddenly miss those days back then, when we were in secondary school.
We would never fail to entertain ourselves by laughing at any random stuff! LOL!

Baby is so nice.
Though we are going thru some financial difficulty, he didnt scold me for splurging money on unneccesary stuff.
Like getting the heels.
I love you to the max baby!

Baby, i'm yearning for your text. You will never know how a simple text from you could actually put a wide smile across my face but i know its impossible cos you're asleep alrdy! HAHAH!

2009-12-28T00:09:00.007+08:00

WE GONNA WALK THRU IT TGT.

Had a very enjoyable christmas eve spent with beloved cuzzies, bro, Mervyn and baby!(:
I believed all of us enjoyed to the max.
Don't feel like blogging shall let the pics do the talking.

Baby is back in camp after 4 days of break.

I am missing him agn but well gonna meet him agn tmr!

Though its only for a short while but i'm satisfied aldry.

Baby you're loved(:

2009-12-23T02:20:00.002+08:00

I Just Miss Your Smile.

Baby was back at camp on mon and he had been posted to nee soon camp.
Quite a sucky place according to him. Haha!
We have only spent a week together and now its like so hard for us to not see each other for 4 days only :(
Baby is forever so sweet!
He said that i'm his motivation when he is in that sucky place(:
He is gonna tell me more abt how i motivates him. HAHA!
I'll get to see him in like a day or so and also gathering with cuzzies for christmas, which has always been our tradition! LOL!

Met up with Ede, SJ and Sallywawa!
As usual, laughters filled the day(:
We went NEW YORK and we were so freaking full after the meal.
I regretted eating the Fish & Chip, its not as nice as the others!
Sallywawa headed to work aftermath while the three of us went to marina square to walk around.
Ede spent 15 bucks on catching soft toy!
Luckily she managed to catch quite a few.
As a result, me and SJ got one each too. Thanks EDE(:
Photos will be uploaded to fb soon!

You're the reason that I'm here <3

2009-12-19T16:18:00.004+08:00

17 Dec '09

HAPPY 20th BIRTHDAY BABY!<br/>
Went to baby's hse in the morning and i wanted to give him a surprise but in the end he alrdy saw me outside his hse when i was preparing to light up the candles on the cake.
My hands were damn shaky, as a result i couldn't light up the candles.
Baby was so sly, he knew i was outside adn he at as if he didnt know and when i knocked on the door, he opened the door and laugh at me!
Baby is so bad :(
Anyway the cake was nice but we only ate one slice each and there's still quite alot left so we left the rest for his mum.
Passed baby his presents and the card and i'm glad that baby liked them though the present may seem quite kiddy. LOL!

In the evening, we went to meet his mum for dinner at fish and co as many places are all full.
Aftermath, we went clubbing at dbl o with baby's bunk mates, like after so long and it was my first time gg into dblo. Haha.
The drinks there were cheap.
But well, it was quite unlucky on that too cos dblo was raided by the police at ard 130am!
Baby was quite pissed and he insisted to speak to the manager but nothing can be done and all they could do was to close the place for the day :(
Therefore, we made our way out and headed to Whale and continued our second round of drinking.
However we didnt drink much there as most of us are tired alrdy.
Cabbed bak home with mervyn as he lives at bishan too and he was damn funny lah including the taxi driver! LOL!
Overall, it was quite a happy day despite the fact that dblo was raided! HAHA!
I LOVE YOU.

2009-12-16T11:22:00.005+08:00

SWEET SWEET LOVE.

Reached singapore at ard 2pm ystd and sitting the ferry back was so tiring.

Had to switch two ferries to get back.

Overall, the place was quite nice but i didnt take any photos of the ferry as baby kept telling me that i don't have to take.

Irritating! LOL!

Most people went there for gambling, so did we.

Oh my, we sound like old uncles and aunties. Haha!

As expected, we lost all our money :(

But nvm, the most impt thing is that we had enjoyed ourselves (:

Had only taken some pics with baby in the cabin.

Baby don't have to act! We know you are not sleeping! LOL!
Evidence of baby abusing me! HAHA!

Ok, don't feel like blogging anymore.

I'm kind of lazy. Haha!

Tmr's goona be a great day.

Looking forward to tmr!

Nights people(:

Baby, I Love You.

2009-12-14T14:56:00.003+08:00

Off We Go!

13 Dec

Met baby in the morning and i was late agn. LOL!
Went to work for awhile only and went up to his place to slack and had dinner.
That's what will happen if you work too near your hse. HAHAH!
In the evening after work, we went prawning!
Its my first time gg for prawning, sound so noob eh. LOL!
Was quite reluctant to go initially cos i hadn't tried prawning before and i thought it wasn't fun.
But well, i didn't regret gg cos its very fun but baby is so fierce :(
He is very impatient!!
Next time, cannot ask him to teach me anything! LOL:P
(Baby don't get angry if you read this, i'm just jk! Hahaha!)
Caught quite alot of prawns and baby brought home as i couldnt eat prawns :(

Whoo~
I'll be leaving for cruise with baby later in the evening and i'm so excited cos its my first time gg on a cruise.
Oh man! I sound so noob agn. LOL!
But we're gg for a day only, so short :(
Ok, i will update more when i'm back tmr(:

Baby, I LOVE YOU.

2009-12-12T00:55:00.002+08:00

If We Could Each Take A Step Back.

Overall, today hasn't been a very great day though was with baby for the whole day.
Perhaps, i don't understand you well enough yet.
I don't want us to end up gg our separate ways.
We need more time together.
I love you, baby.

2009-12-11T00:32:00.002+08:00

Its Never Too Late

Lessons started at 12pm today and surprisingly i could even be late!
Thank god ede called me at 12pm!
It was alrdy late by the time she called me up but at least i still managed to attend 1 and 1/2 hour of lessons(:
THANKS EDE!!
(Sorry, no treats for that cos i'm broke. LOL!)

Met up with baby after school and i'm so sorry baby for making you pissed off.
I'll try to talk nicely next time, I promise baby(: Went to see doc agn and had lunch at dad's place!
Aftermath, trained down to baby's place as he needed to get changed for work.
Cab home after work and had a bad experience!
Don't wish to say it in detail.
As i'm tired alrdy,
Gotta hit the bed soon!
Nights people(:

PS: I'm renting out my bf for 5 bucks per day! HAHAHA:P
Just joking, i will not bear to rent out my baby to others :D
I LOVE YOU.

2009-12-08T21:27:00.003+08:00

If You Knew What I Want.

Lessons ended rather early today and i was very reluctant to wake up for school in the morning.

But i still force my way to school bcos i have 3 crazy friends in school!

They're so loved.

There will always be laughters with them ard!

And edeline, i know you would read this! Please be happy and proud of this. LOL!

Ok, after school went for our normal routine and we headed back home.

Watched tv and slept in the afternoon, just like a pig! HAHA!

I didn't notice that baby had texted me and baby thought that i anyhow run around agn.

Only baby knows what i mean. LOL!

In the end, didn't had much time to text baby as he had to turn in at 8pm today and wake up at 245am tmr.

Poor baby!

But well, its ok!

I will get to see him tmr(:

I wish you knew what i was thinking.

I know you've been treating me well,

but that's not all i want.

I love surprises,

I guess all girls love that too.

I hope i am not too demanding.

2009-12-07T21:47:00.007+08:00

Nothing Beats Being With You.

Late for school as usual.

Wanted to wake up early but i couldn't :(

Went to school and was unable to concentrate as i was having a very bad headache.

I nv had headaches before lah, even if i had it was just a slight headache.

Today i finally know how does a bad headache feels like. LOL!

Was supposed to meet anne for swimming after school but in the end there wasn't much sun so we deicided to call off the swimming cum tanning session.

We went to see doc instead. Haha!

She went to have her H1N1 jab while i went to see doc for my rashes!

She was damn funny when she took the jab lah.

She was so afraid of injections.

I thought i'm alrdy very afraid of injections but she is worst! LOL!

I was so kind to lend her my hand to let her grab while she had the jab. Haha!

Aftermath, we went to j8 as i wanted to get some stuff.

Didn't have the intention to get myself anything in the first place but well temptations are diffiult to resist! Arghh!!

I got a top for myself while she got 2 shorts for herself and Aud(:

In the evening, went for dinner with parents.

Followed dad to NTUC after dinner and i was shocked to bump into one of my pri school mate, Norman!

Didn't see him for like ages alrdy.

But well, we didn't talk to each other as both of our parents are ard.

What a pity.

The Top that i got for myself(:

I look fat man :(

Anyway, I love the top!

Didnt get to talk to baby long enough as he had to turn in for bed early tonight.

Miss him so much agn :(

Alright, i'm gonna end here.

Baby, i miss you dearly.

I love you.

2009-12-06T22:26:00.004+08:00

Can Love Be Everlasting?

Sat, 5 Dec 09

Helped dad in the morning as usual and boon was working on that day too so she went to meet me after helping my dad.
Didn't see her for quite sometime alrdy though we are studying in the same school and its not like school is so big. LOL!
We had so much to talk abt but very little time to spare. Haha!
Separated with her after talking for awhile and headed back home.
Baby was freaking drunk the day before as he went drinking with his friends which resulted him to have sore throat! LOL!
Met up with baby at ard 7pm.
Went jurong point to walk ard as baby had to meet someone at lakeside to sell his ipod.
Went for movies aftermath with ben and sam
. We watched Couples Retreat!
It was quite a hilarious movie, laughed like hell man.
Ben sent us home after that(:

Sun, 6 Dec 09

Went to baby's hse for lunch in the afternoon.
I had overslept and my phone died :(
Poor phone, don't know what went wrong with the phone, the phone was off when i woke up and i couldn't on the phone :(
As a result, baby couldn't contact me.
Slept for awhile after lunch and we went to buy things and collect money!
Left baby's hse tgt with him at ard 630pm.
Trained down to pasir ris with baby and so he booked in while i went home.
I miss him agn but nvm will get to meet him on wed and after that he will have block leave for 2 weeks(:
He is so loved by me <3

Gonna stop here.
Bye peeps!

PS: Baby you're so sweet, I Love you! Forever will be(:

2009-12-04T23:46:00.003+08:00

Nothing Can Be Compared To You.

A wonderful day spent(:
Went to school for 2 hours of auditing case study and that was the end of the week for school!
Practically everyone had aches all over their body due to the napfa test ystd including myself.
My leg muscles, arms and stomach hurts but its actually a good sign bcos that shows that my muscles are stretching, like after so long! (:
It has been a long time ever since i had such muscle aches!

Head back home after school.
Ate maggie mee cos i was freaking hungry and slept for awhile.
Aftermath went down to bugis to get baby's cap and the caps there were freaking cheap.
Headed down to pasir ris to meet baby after getting his cap and i lied to him that i didn't get his cap and he was damn sad cos he said that he wanted to wear tonight but apparently he didn't wear it! So when i met him he didn't really wanna talk to me until i took out his cap!
He was damn shocked when i took out the cap from my bag and finally i saw the smile i awlays see on his face(:
He is forever so cute!
Love him lots <3
Accompanied baby back home and had kfc for dinner(:
Baby went to meet his friends after that as i went back home.
A short and sweet day spent with him <3

Gonna end here.
Can't wait to meet baby agn tmr(:
Nights everyone!

2009-12-03T20:52:00.002+08:00

BOREDOM KILLS

Finally napfa is over!
Time to enjoy and slack!
I was hoping that it would rain today so that we could dont run 2.4km but well it didnt rain at all only after we finished everything and when we are on our way home :(
Nvm, at least i've cleared that alrdy! So happy.
I think i've done better that expected. Haha!

Tmr there is only 2 hrs of lesson and its case study which means its time to have fun! LOL!
Case study is the only lesson which i enjoy alot! HAHAH!

Apparently i'm dying from boredom cos i've nothing to do.
Kept staring at the com but i don't know what to do and baby hasn't text me yet since morning.
I wonder what he is doing now :(
I hope he will text me real soon! I'm freaking bored!!

Baby, i'm missing you so badly:'(
I miss you <3

2009-12-02T17:07:00.003+08:00

When its gonna end?

I'm so sick with facing such problems alrdy!
I'm tired! Can we just get it settled as soon as possible?
Its just so sickening when people keeps bugging you and you are there trying to avoid.
I wish i could adopt the fuck care attitude like what baby said but it's not that easy bcos i'm not like that by nature. THATS NOT ME!
Shall stop addressing that matter, its makes me damn stress.

On a side note, i've passed my FTT.
Can't believe i could pass just like that and i entered the room late for like 15 mins when i had reached there early!
Anyway i've passed so there's nothing more to talk about.
Today, Audit CA was quite managable not as difficult as what i had expected.
Didn't really study that hard anyway. HAHAHA!
Was like watching tv,using com and studying at the same time but well i still managed to finish writing down the notes and go to bed(:
No lessons tmr BUT there is NAFA tmr! Damn boring.
I didn't use to dislike NAFA so much when i was in sec school but now the thought of it makes me feel so sick :(
Just wanna quickly get over and done with.

Countdown: 2 more days and i will get to see baby!
I MISS YOU <3

2009-11-30T20:49:00.003+08:00

HELLO Pepole!
I'm back to blogging! Haven't been blogging for like don't know how long. Has been too lazy to blog the last few months but the most impt reason is that i had forgotten my password and i was lazy to reset. Haha. Ok, damn stress now.. Studying for FFT tmr and i still have lots to cover :( This week will be damn stress! Tues: Final theory test Wed: Auditing CA1 Thurs: NAFA I think i will be damn shag after the whole week of activities! But its alright, i would rather the time to pass faster than slower cos i will be able to see baby agn when sat comes(: I'm currently damn bored from reading the FTT book and i'm waiting for baby's text! Miss him so much man! :( Gotta, stop here now(:

2009-07-27T13:52:00.002+08:00

MY MIND IS IN A WHIRL

Was late for school by 10 mins but i hope that won't be taken into consideration because i think we are given a 15 mins grace period. I hope so.
Baby woke me up in the morning at 730am and just before he called me i woke up and looked at the clock, i thought it was only 630am so i wanted to sleep back but well, baby called me up when i wanted to sleep back. LOL!
He had a difficult time waking me up. He talked to me for nearly half an hour but to no avail i wasn't able to wake up so i went back to sleep for awhile and well got up at 815am.
So sorry baby, to have wasted your effort agn :(

Gonna meet up with daph love today and i am so excited!
Haven't met up with her for quite long alr and i really miss her and her nonsense(:
Looking forward to meet her later!!
In the evening, gonna meet sj to study for the coming costing CA on thurs.
We really gonna mug hard for our studies, not gonna let everything that we had been through go to waste.
We've gotta perservere on and finish the next half of the year.
Everything will soon be over in a blink of an eye(:
Today is gonna be a tiring day but an enjoyable one:D

I miss you.

2009-07-23T20:17:00.003+08:00

Hey peeps! Haven't been blogging for more than a month i guess. Have been pretty busy the last few week. Many things have changed the last one month. Not sure if things have change for the better or perhaps worst. But well, i guess things weren't too bad just that i am seldom at home these days due to work. Got myself a whole new change of jobscope and its the kind of job which me, myself can't imagine myself doing because all the while i hated that kind of job nature. But, i guess it wouldn't be that bad as i am having guidance from this special someone(: And that's the reason why working is so fun too! Well, besides this there is something that is bothering me too but i just don't know how to address the matter. All the while i thought we were besties but i guess it was just my wishful thinking. By just doing one small act made me realise how foolish i am. Regretted doing what i had done, just made myself so disappointed by doing so. Perhaps, i'm just thinking too much. Gotta stop here(:

2009-06-27T14:38:00.004+08:00

Had a very tiring day ystd.

Slept at 6am in the morning the day before and i woke up at 6:10am to follow my dad out to help him get his season parking bcos i screwed up everything! Which means i only slept for 10 mins! LOL! When i was taking the bus to HG mall i almost missed the stop bcos i was too tired and i really looked like a zombie! As i was too tired i didnt wanna take bus cos the bus ride would be super long so i decided to take circle line back to bishan, anyway i have not tried taking it before and it was pretty fast. Reached bishan in ard 15 mins!

After i got home used com awhile and slept agn at 11am. Got up at 3:40pm, went over to meet daph, nic & ben. They were damn funny lah and nic kept talking about gore movies! Took some pics with nic while daph went up to have dinner and we look damn retarded lah esp nic! LOL:P

Aftermath, i parted with them at ard 9 plus. Met up with CY for some discussions and i reached home at ard 3am and woke up at 6am to help my dad :(

Another tiring day!!

Althouh i kept telling myself

that i know what i want

and whats best for me,

but somehow there's a part of me

that is reluctant to follow

and its holding me back.

I'm just feeling so confused.

2009-06-24T23:40:00.002+08:00

YOU KNOW I'LL BE THERE.

I think my sleeping routine has changed drastically!

Every night i will be home after 12am which in the past i wouldn't. I used to sleep at ard 12 plus in the past but now even worst! I slept at 3am in the morning. OMG!

I'm afraid i will have difficulty getting back to my normal routine when school starts and the worst thing is that i can't be late for school anymore or worst still be absent from school. My attendance is really getting from bad to worst! I wonder is 2nd year more strict or is the teacher's problem? Suddenly, i don't have the determination and perserverance to continue studying anymore. Perhaps is not studying rather not studying there anymore. I hate the system there, it really sucks. Everyone there don't really seem motivated towards studies.

Ystd went to O Bar and i saw ken! I was rather shock to see him there, didn't expect to see him there. Went over to chit chat with him and i kept asking him for discounts and stuff but sadly he wasn't able to offer that to me as he have just started working there and ystd was only his 3rd day of work. Glad to know that he is enjoying working there(:

Drank quite alot ystd and its more than what i usually drink and CY was saying that i am so much better alr cos i drank the same amount as what they drank and they are really good in taking alcohol! I screwed the day up ystd :( But well, i still did enjoy myself! I hope what i did ystd didn't screw up their day.

Can't wait for tmr as once agn its time for MAC meetup!

So excited but we are gg orchard agn this time. So boring!

Kind of contradicting huh? LOL!

But still feeling more excited then bored(:

Gonna stop here cos its too wordy to carry on.

All i need is time.

Time will reveal.

2009-06-18T13:15:00.002+08:00

FATE

Went to Topone for singing session with shujuan and ede and it was really fun! After singing for a few hrs we were all really tired and we didnt really wanna sing anymore but we still continued to sing till the time is up! However, after we left we just came singing non-stop! Weird eh? When we were there we don't wanna sing but after we left we just kept on singing. LOL! Aftermath, we went to MOS to have our dinner as the three of us were famished after singing for so long. Head down to the new mall just beside bugis junction and i don't know what is the mall's name! LOL!

The shops there were very little, maybe its because some of the shops are not open yet but the building is nice! Haha! After which, we headed back home and i trained down to bishan tgt with ede and she treated me a cup of strawberry milk tea! I am so touched, ede! Hahahaah!! Thanks anyway(: Was feeling super tired after i reached home but well, i couldnt fall asleep though. This feeling sucks! Went online and talked to Cheryl and after she told me some stuff i was suppose to be feeling sad but she was really a great entertainer! LOL!

Why must i know all these now?

If i had known earlier,

maybe we wouldnt end up like this.

But well,

maybe all this were fated

& we were just not meant for each other.

2009-06-14T22:47:00.004+08:00

Haha, finally i can blog with pictures!

After so many wordy post. Haha!

Well, had quite an enjoyable day ystd(:

Went to shaw house, Mango with boon and was suppose to reserve clothes but well those that i looked on didnt fit well on me so i didnt get anything while boon got herself two and she is like so happy! Haha!

Aftermath, we went to ps to walk ard and at the same time to find yong rong, jia ren and Ian (:

We went to catch, Land Of The Lost and it was quite a great movie! Its super hilarious. Half of the time, the cinema would be filled with laughters! Great movie indeed(:

We had lots of time before the movie starts, so we went to mac to get some food. Then yong rong and Ian started taking out cards, they said they want to show us magic but in the end, we sarted playing daidee and here is the most hilarious part! We played heart attack and we were damn crazy that everyone were looking at us, so embarrassed man! But well, we didnt really bother because we were really enjoying ourself to the max! LOL!

After parting with them, someone came to pick me up and we discussed some stuff at my area and i went back at ard 3am. Was super tired by then and quickly head for my bed(:

Had an enjoyable day though(:

Love them all!

2009-06-11T16:28:00.005+08:00

REMINISCE

(Chorus)
Do you know how to touch a girl?
If you want me so much
First I have to knowAre you thoughtful and kind?
Do you care what's on my mind?
Or am I just for show?
You'll go far in this world
If you know how to touch a girl
(do you know how to touch, know how to touch a girl x2)

I think I could like you
But I keep holding back
'Cause I can't seem to tell
If you're fiction or fact
Show me you can laugh
Show me you can cry
Show me who you really are
Deep down inside
Do you feel something happening
Could this be for real?
I don't know right now
But tonight will reveal

Suddenly, had the urge to listen to this song and it starts bringing alot of memories back.
The more i tried not to think, the more i will.
I am really having a hard time now.
How long will this last?

I'm faking a smile every single day.
I'm avoiding from many facts every single day.
I'm forcing myself not to think about it every single day.
I'm forcing myself to stay happy every single day.

I just find it so hard to accept the fact.
I just have this trauma in my mind, that makes me so afraid of falling agn.

2009-06-09T21:02:00.002+08:00

TIRED :(

Am feeling super tired in the morning as i slept at like 4am ystd night.

Went to Le Bar for drinking as he had liquor there not finished yet.

We played dice and i kept losing most of the time lah:(

So well, i drank most of it, its not alot though but i suck in drinking!

I will get very dead by just drinking alittle :o

Aftermath, went to the 7 eleven there to get more drinks. Haha.

Decided to get back to bishan before we start drinking agn bcos by then it will be very difficult to get back as there will be road blocks.

Went to bishan park, we drank there and we were totally gone!

Reached home at ard 4am and i just hit for my bed after i reach home cos i was dead tired!

Woke up in the morning and was freaking dehydrated, drank lots and lots of water!

The whole day i walked like a zombie, talk without sense!

After school accompanied salwa for alittle while and quickly went home to get more rest cos i am really lagging of rest:(

Although i have like slept for quite long but still very tired though!

I'm like a pig man!

Gotta stop here(:

Seriously,

I'm damn lost,

I don't know if what i am doing now is correct,

I don't wish to get anyone hurt after everything.

I just need time.

2009-06-05T13:24:00.003+08:00

SHAGGED!

Tried my best to keep myself busy for the entire week and as a result i was very shag after the whole week.

After i get the photos from xw i wil have lots of photos to upload but till now i still have photos that i have not uploaded!

Kind of lazy to upload them. LOL!

Went to watch another movie for the second time in this week and you know what?

The both of us fell asleep during the show!

We took turns to fall asleep, its like so funny lah!

But i think i know whats the show abt lah..

Wasted 7.50 each to sleep in the theatre. LOL!

School was as usual boring!

I'm starting to lag behind alr cos i have like missed two days of lessons and during that two days, teacher have taught quite alot as a result i have to really study on the weekends to catch up!

Wanted to go for cca today but was feeling really tired so in the end i didnt go for it.

Felt quite guilty for not gg cos its alr like my second or third time not gg.

I have to go next week man!

Ok, gotta stop here.

I need plenty of rest!!

2009-06-01T23:24:00.002+08:00

LET-IT-GO!

Was feeling super tired in sch today as i only had like an hr sleep for the whole day ystd and thanks to someone for accompanying me thru out the whole night which resulted in you not sleeping for the entire day despite the fact that you had to attend work!

I'm really so grateful to you(:

After sch went to ps with someone then met xw, shafiq, jiayu and her friends for monsters vs aliens.

It was a very hilarious movie and didnt regret watching!

Thru the whole time, half the time we would be laughing non-stop over minor issues which makes us looks like retards! Its really so enjoying to be out with them(:

Lastly, i'm so glad that i had friends like you guys!

They made my day a fulfilling one.

I do admit that i really do miss you

but somehow i can't just let things go on

when i know that something hasn't been

going right for a very long time

This teaches people a lesson which is

treasure the ones before you

make them feel loved for as much as you can

show them that they really are impt to you

do not start to regret when its too late.

2009-05-30T15:09:00.006+08:00

C-O-N-F-U-S-E-D!

Really don't know if i should let go, somehow you give me a feeling that i should let go.

You sounded like you care for me but actual fact deep down in your heart, it doesn't matter if i am by your side anot.

Seriously, i just wanna know what you are thinking! You are making me feel like an idiot!

I'm somehow happy and unhappy that you appeared.

Happy because i won't have to feel so hurt like how i used to feel in the past,

unhappy because i don't know what is right for me and i feel bad deceiving you about some stuff.

Hopefully things will take place in a slower pace so that i will not be out of breath.

Was suppose to have a chalet on wed night bcos my cousin booked 2 nights for herself but she was only able to go for thurs night, so i was kind enough to take up one night from her for a few of my classmates from IQH. However, apparently she wont be free to get the keys on wed and i can't get the keys on her behalf which means that everything has to be cancelled!

Sadded :(

Gotta stop here for now(:

I'm super tired!

2009-05-15T10:45:00.004+08:00

Finally, i've got all the photos! Thanks to XW(: Had a very enjoyable day ystd with boy and his friends(: I am so glad that he is changing and one good thing is that i can see that he is changing! As you know if you have too many things in hand, definitely you will have to sacrifice one right? Well, for me i sacrifice my studies for him! Ain't i great, to give up such an important thing for him.Haha! As a result, i didnt really know how to do my tax paper today. Oh man! Pray hard that i will pass! On a side note, i had passed my BTT on tues(: But i hadn't book my FTT yet cos i am broke:( Oh man! I wanted to upload pics but stupid blogger had some probs, i guess i'll have to upload some other time then:(

2009-05-05T18:00:00.003+08:00

CHOPPED-OFF!

I just got my hair chopped off ystd!

Went to this hair saloon at aljunied called hair journal and it looked really posh. Was recommended by xw to go there and we went to have our hair cut tgt(:

The lady who helped me cut my hair was damn cute, she was like,'you sure you wanna cut your hair arh?' and i was like, 'yes!'. When she started cutting, she told me,' I am cutting alr!' and i started to laugh.

She was damn cute lah!

You guys must be thinking how short i cut huh?

I went to sch this morning and was damn embarrassed when i walked into the class, someone in the class just shouted, 'Wow! She cut her hair arh!' as i was walking into the class and i was damn embarrassed lah. When teacher heard the commotion in the class, she asked the class, "Who is she?" Wth! And the whole class started to burst out into laughters!

Everyone started asking me questions like, 'why you cut your hair?', 'you bear to cut your hair?', 'what happen to you?', 'Did you suffer a big blow?'.

And my ans to them was, ' i just feek like cutting, very sick of my old hair style.'

If you were to ask if i had regretted cutting my ans is no cos somehow i feel very comfortable with this hair style(:

Went for btt e-trial this afternoon and as expected i failed! Haha!

On my way out of the school, there was this stupid security guard who was so freaking rude!

He shouted at me and ask me to walk on the other side of the road as there were oncoming cars at the side where i was walking. Before he shouted at me, i wanted to move on the other side but there was strings along the lane so i didnt cross! That stupid security guard started saying:"use your brain lah! Cross on to their side!" and he just kept on shouting at me!

Damn idiot lah! I am not that stupid lah!

Ok, gotta stop here!

Had a very embarrassed day today:(
My new hair style(:

My old hair style

2009-05-01T15:38:00.004+08:00

So sorry people, have not been blogging regularly!

Was quite lazy to blog the past few days, i guess my last post was like almost 2 weeks ago huh..
Ok, can't really rmb what i have been doing the past 2 weeks but happenings recently, of cos i do rmb! Haha!
Shall start from 29 April, Shafiq's birthday(:
Hopefully, he did enjoyed the mini birthday celebration that we had for him and i shall update the photos when i have it(:
Next up, in the evening went to Zouk with girls (:
Totally got myself drunk on that day & you know what!?
It was the first time that i had experienced the feeling of getting drunk, it totally sucks!
Kept puking non-stop & if i did puke on any of you girls, i am so sorry! Haha!
At that point of time, i really felt like sleeping but they told me not to, instead they told me to dance it off and yea, i felt much better after that!
Thanks girls for looking after me(:
Same here, shall update the photos when i have received them!
Gotta go!

2009-04-14T13:08:00.005+08:00

Finally i am back to blogging!

Didn't really had a great time the past few weeks, was feeling rather moody due to some stuff.

Everything is changing and i really hate to face the truth!

Its rather painful to face the facts.

How i wish i could disappear right away.

Really hate what i am going thru now.

Its either i give up or i continue living the life i am having now.

Trying to act non-chalant to everything that is changing around me but its just difficult.

Its easier said then done!

I should be happy today that we have come these far but somehow my mood is not there.

There is no sense of excitement at all.

All i have is a sense of insecurity.

How i wish i could just let go and not think too much!

Its really hard to carry on when things are like that.

I will just try to carry on for as long as i can, till my last breath.

Will try to keep everything deep down in my heart.

Ok. gonna post some photos that i took with alicia and crys on thurs, 2/4/09.

Went to Orchard with them and they got me a dress as my birthday gift!

& I love it, thanks girls(:

M.A.C is loved!

In a blink of an eye,

25 mths had passed but

I'm sad to say that everything has changed!

If i could just go back in time

that would be so wonderful

Too bad, its impossible.