Friday, September 26, 2008 ; 10:43 PM♥
Because of you ; again.
Many Thoughts Running Through My Mind.I am feeling so out of place now.
Feel so odd everywhere.
My presence is so not important to others.
Just feel like disappearing at this instance.
I feel so useless!
I am just a nobody.
Someone that ppl wouldnt want to take note and rmb!
Oh, my blog is just so dead with lots of words!
No choice, couldnt find any pics to upload.
So sry ppl:(
Labels: Moody Moody Moody
Wednesday, September 24, 2008 ; 10:41 PM♥
Because of you ; again.
Hello!Came to blog today cos i promised Mingyan that i would blog abt her yast thru online.Haha!
Ok, now i will blog abt her!
Mingyan is a nice friend of mine & she is super thick skin! Lol! (jk lah:P)
& She is forever so lame, hahaha!!!
Ok lah, actually she is a very nice girl who comforts me when i am down(:
Today was a great day for me!
Cos finally i had a chance to have a heart to heart talk wif dear boy and i felt so much better after saying out everything(:
PS: I love you loads kay!
Nth much to post today so i shall stop here(:
Oh, what a great day!
Labels: Our happiness will last
Monday, September 22, 2008 ; 3:14 AM♥
Because of you ; again.
21/09/08, SunI felt so loved today.
Now i know that there are many ppl out there who cares for me even if you don't!
Thanks to those who cares for me.
I appreciate it very much(:
Slept at 7am in the morning cos i was waiting for boy to be home but it was worth waiting lah.Haha Had slight asthma and i couldnt get to sleep!
It was so difficult to breath and i tried to apply vicks on my throat but sadly it didnt help:(
As a result, i didnt get much sleep.
Luckily mel called me today and ask me how was i feeling today and i told him abt my situation.
And i was so gateful to him amd my parents! Cos they knew that i had asthma and took the effort to brimg me the inhaler! They saved me man!
Thanks so much to my parents and my dear bbrother!(:
Love them lots!
Sorry for ppl out there who is viewing my blog now cos my post is like so outdated!
This post is for sun and i posted it out on tues.
Kind of weird.Haha!
Will stop blogging for today, gonna get some rest(:
Labels: I'm Loved
Sunday, September 21, 2008 ; 2:18 AM♥
Because of you ; again.
20/9/08, Sat
Although i didnt spend my day wif him but had a meaningful day today though!
All thanks to daphne and Nicholas for their companion!
Had a chat wif someone whom i had known for very long thru online and it was our first time talking on the phone. I was quite worried to talk on the phone initially but in the end i still got over it somehow! Lol!
Really had a great chat though(:
Felt much better after talking over the phone!
Thanks alot to xxxxx.Haha!
Ok, gonna have mac feast later on!
i am gonna grow fat after staying at his hse for these 2 weeks cos we had supper practically everyday! Lol!
Bye peeps(:
Mac feast on the way(:
Although i didnt spend my day wif him but had a meaningful day today though!
All thanks to daphne and Nicholas for their companion!
Had a chat wif someone whom i had known for very long thru online and it was our first time talking on the phone. I was quite worried to talk on the phone initially but in the end i still got over it somehow! Lol!
Really had a great chat though(:
Felt much better after talking over the phone!
Thanks alot to xxxxx.Haha!
Ok, gonna have mac feast later on!
i am gonna grow fat after staying at his hse for these 2 weeks cos we had supper practically everyday! Lol!
Bye peeps(:
Mac feast on the way(:
I'm gonna change for the better,
I'm not gonna be as fragile as in the past,
My life will be filled with colours,
I am gonna make full use of my time now!
Love Hurts:(
Labels: Let Bygones Be Bygones
Thursday, September 18, 2008 ; 3:57 PM♥
Because of you ; again.
Its ok if you dunt give a damn abt me cos i will nv let you affect me anymore! All you think abt is you and yourself!
F off!
; 1:31 AM♥
Because of you ; again.
Do you really care abt other ppl's feelings?All you care abt is yourself!
Dunt you think that you are freaking selfish?
I've been sacrificing selflessly but what have you done?
Are these wad i am suppose to get in return!
I've been tolerating all your nonsense all this while!
I really don't know how long i can tolerate all of these crap!
I am really afraid that i wont be able to take it any longer.
Always tried telling you but seems like it doesnt make much of a difference.
Giving attitude as and when you like,
treating us like fools.
Do you think we can take it?
We are humans too ok!
I did everything for you but seems like it has all been wasted.
You are so insensitive to my feelings.
Labels: i will collapse in a matter of time
Tuesday, September 16, 2008 ; 3:26 PM♥
Because of you ; again.
Ok, there is something that i must really post cos its freaking ridiculous!Last sun, 14/09/08 was lantern festival so my bf, his siblings and myself decided to go to the void deck to play wif candles and fire works. So we went down and daphne was gg ard provision shops to see whether there are candles but seems like most of the shops didnt sell, eventually she managed to get some candles but those were candles that we would use for birthday cakes! Lol!
We started playing wif the candles and fireworks den decided to play some ball games cos we brought down a volleyball. We played for awhile and decided to take a break.
Here comes the interesting part!
There was this fat malay guy standing outside the lift looking at us and we were thinking maybe he thinks that we were making too much of noise cos it was alr 10 plus at that time and there is sch on the next day so we tried not to make too much noise. After awhile, i saw this malay guy toking on the phone and i was thinking maybe he was calling the police so i told them that i think he is calling the police and kept pointing at us as he talks. Den they said nvm just dont care abt him. So we contd playing and everything.
Suddenly there was a fire engine turning into our direction den we were like omg! He really called the police! And we didnt know wad to do, we quickly cleared up everything. Den the firemen walked towards our direction and told us to stop clearing and leave everything on the floor cos they need to take photographs of those stuffs for investigation and we were like wtf! We were freaking pissed off by that malay guy. And after that we still had to wait for the police to arrive. after talking to the firemen, i came to know that the fat malay guy called the police and told them that, there were kids playing wif fire at the void deck and we were like wth! we were playing wif fireworks not FIRE lah! And the poor firemen had to come down for no reason.. All thanks to that fat malay guy!
After waiting for an hour or so, the police arrived and took down our particulars and he told us that there would be some actions taken on us as we had damaged the government's property as the ground had candles's wax made by us den we were like lantern festival of cos will play wif candles wad! And i ask the police why the person who made the call didnt come down den he said that he didnt wannna come down.. Wth lah! Made the call den dunt dare to come down! Humji! After the police arrive we still have to wait for the IO's instructions which wasted a whole lot of our time! In the end, nth happen. All thanks to the police officer for helping us(:
We were only told to clear the things and try to clear off the wax from the floor.
I really hate that fat malay guy lah!
Making so much hassle for so many ppl! He made the firemen and the police officers travel down for no reason and gave them xtra work! And made us waste our time for no reason too!
Someday he will get his revenge!
Sunday, September 14, 2008 ; 6:18 PM♥
Because of you ; again.
Omg!!Today is me and baby's anniversary but we have to be stucked at his hse today bcos i am down wif chicken pox! And i think i am kinda of 'lucky' cos i got infected right after my hols! So sad lah cos i wont be able to go out and enjoy like others:( But the good thing is that i got contracted after my exams(:
Now that i am down wif chicken pox i cant go out for 2 weeks which is very long lah and actually i am supposed to meet out wif crys and alicia on either the 26th or 27th of sept but seems like i cant meet them out alr:( Nvm, i hope they would be free to meet me out after 2 weeks from today.
I think tmr i wont be able to get out of bed lah cos today is the first day only and the second and third day will be worst! Arghh!! I dont want!! I just hope it will past faster!
Ok, gotta stop blogging now.
Saturday, September 13, 2008 ; 12:36 AM♥
Because of you ; again.
12/09/08, FriToday went to do catering wif xw, hp, hp's bf and her two other friends.
We were suppose to meet at harbourfront at 4:15pm but it seems like all of us was late except xw.Haha!
From there we took a bus to the japanese restaurant but i forgot wad was the restaurant called, i think it is called bento something.Haha!
Initially i thot we would be doing the catering there but its not lah! Haha!
It was actually at a car showroom, i think its the grand opening of the showroom if i am not wrong.
We were fetched to the place by a lorry and we had to sit behind the lorry squeezing tgt wif the food and everything! Its like so funny lah and everyone was like looking at us.Haha!
And it reminded me of bangla workers being squeezed behind the lorry! Lol!
Xw actually wanted to take photo of us in the lorry but eventually she didnt cos she was afraid that her camera might drop.
So we reached the showroom and had to get ready the food and everything. I was like feeling hungry and tired at that time lah! But luckily everything went on smoothly! Haha.
The whole thing ended quite early, earlier den wad i had expected and i thot that after that there went be much food left cos the food there looks quite little but in the end there are alot of leftovers!
And so we started eating & the food was delicious but after we had all eaten, there was still lots of leftovers! Of cos it was thrown away and its like very wasted! Haha!
After that it was time for us to go home and we had to squeezed inside one pathetic 5 sitter car,Lol! But at least its still better den walking to the mrt station(:
So me and xw alighted at redhill mrt station. Guess wad!
The both of us took the wrong direction back home and we didnt notice until we reach boon lay which was the last station!
And we were like wth! It will take us a very long time to reach home lah!
But we still manage to make our way home on time(:
Labels: Tired Tired Tired
Thursday, September 11, 2008 ; 10:35 PM♥
Because of you ; again.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO DADDY!<
Today's daddy birthday went out to dine at NEW YORK and the food was delicious!
Its like all the food there tasted great, so far haven tasted any food that is awful there.Haha!
I hope dad had enjoyed himself today(:
I hope dad had enjoyed himself today(:
In the morning went out to beach wif Shujuan and ede but too bad xw wasnt able to join us:(
Today's weather was great and now my skin is freaking itchy due to the sunburns!
Today's weather was great and now my skin is freaking itchy due to the sunburns!
But i was satisfied wif my tane skinned! Haha(:
Many things have happened this few days but hopefully all these things will get settled soon.
I really didnt thot that things would end up like this!
How i wish all these were just dreams.
Everything would be so wonderful if i hadnt existed!
I feel so dumb!
Getting hurt over something,
which you dont feel remorseful!
I'm the dumbest girl you can ever find on earth!
I hate myself for everything that i have done!
I Suck!
Labels: Just let me vanish into thin air
Tuesday, September 9, 2008 ; 6:43 PM♥
Because of you ; again.
Yay! Exams are finally over!Today's accounting paper is still quite managable compared to all those qusetions that i had done previously(:
As for bzf paper is oso managable cos the quetions that came out was those that i studied!
This is the first time that i am like so lucky i guess cos in the past those that i studied didnt really came out for exams but this time its like diff!
I think its bcos this time i worked harder compared to the past.
I hope my results will prove that my hard work do pay off!
Ok, shan't tok abt exams alr cos its over! And now its time for enjoyment! Haha(:
Will be watching movie wif xw tmr and after that should be gg over to boy's hse,haha!
Shall stop here cos there is like nth to blog today.Haha(:
Bye earthlings!
Labels: Exams stress over
Sunday, September 7, 2008 ; 1:11 AM♥
Because of you ; again.
Sat, 6/9/08
As usual, went to help dad in the morning.
Aftermath, went home for a shower and off i went to meet xw, aloy & yj for studies(:
Initially wanted to meet them after helping dad cos its quite near to dad's place but in the end i decided to go home first and meet them later cos i feel very uncomfortable not showering after helping dad.Haha!
I met them up at ard 4 plus and yj was our teacher for accounting today.
He wanted to study biz today but i guess he didnt studied much in the end cos we kept asking him accounting questions and he kept teaching us so as a result i think he didnt absorb much for biz.Haha!
We studied till 8pm and we decided to go for our dinner and get back to studying after that but after we finished our dinner we didnt went back to studying cos we were like not in the mood to study alr so we walked ard HM and we noticed that HM was damn boring!
So we decided to go to aloy's hse since its like near to HM.haha!
Went to his hse and Aloy was like teaching yj to play guitar and oso drum!
They were so hilarious lah! Always making fun of each other.Lol!
Ok, gotta stop here cos i am gonna study thru the nite tonight!
Bye.
Aftermath, went home for a shower and off i went to meet xw, aloy & yj for studies(:
Initially wanted to meet them after helping dad cos its quite near to dad's place but in the end i decided to go home first and meet them later cos i feel very uncomfortable not showering after helping dad.Haha!
I met them up at ard 4 plus and yj was our teacher for accounting today.
He wanted to study biz today but i guess he didnt studied much in the end cos we kept asking him accounting questions and he kept teaching us so as a result i think he didnt absorb much for biz.Haha!
We studied till 8pm and we decided to go for our dinner and get back to studying after that but after we finished our dinner we didnt went back to studying cos we were like not in the mood to study alr so we walked ard HM and we noticed that HM was damn boring!
So we decided to go to aloy's hse since its like near to HM.haha!
Went to his hse and Aloy was like teaching yj to play guitar and oso drum!
They were so hilarious lah! Always making fun of each other.Lol!
Ok, gotta stop here cos i am gonna study thru the nite tonight!
Bye.
Feeling so terrible inside-out,
But who knows?
Will you even persist to know abt it?
Will you even admit you're at fault?
Am i really that impt to you,
Like wad you have mentioned in the past?
I doubt so.
I'm hurt deep down but
i doubt you will even care.
Feeling so neglected.
But who knows?
Will you even persist to know abt it?
Will you even admit you're at fault?
Am i really that impt to you,
Like wad you have mentioned in the past?
I doubt so.
I'm hurt deep down but
i doubt you will even care.
Feeling so neglected.
Labels: NEGLIGENCE
Saturday, September 6, 2008 ; 12:29 AM♥
Because of you ; again.
Everything is so screwed up!
Why cant i just lead a normal and peaceful life just like others??
So many probs and worries here and there!
Everything turns out to be wad i hadnt expected it to be.
I thought all the unhappiness are over but
Nv did i expect outcomes to be so undesirable!
Why is life so unfair!?
Why i am treated so unfairly!?
Everything sucks!
Why cant i just lead a normal and peaceful life just like others??
So many probs and worries here and there!
Everything turns out to be wad i hadnt expected it to be.
I thought all the unhappiness are over but
Nv did i expect outcomes to be so undesirable!
Why is life so unfair!?
Why i am treated so unfairly!?
Everything sucks!
Labels: Never-ending unhappiness
Friday, September 5, 2008 ; 12:13 AM♥
Because of you ; again.
Thurs, 4/09/2008
Initially wanted to go sch today but didnt go, so i met up wif xw at j8 instead!
SJ was supposed to meet up wif us oso but sadly she had some personal probs last min so she couldnt join us but nvm cos theres still next time(:
After meeting xw, we went to purchase the cake for wx birthday and we settled down at cafe cartel to have our breakfast cum lunch while waiting for the rest to arrive.
Actually xw wanted to share a meal wif me cos she is quite broke today but in the end we didnt share cos she said that the set meal looked quite little and the price was reasonable so we decided to have one each.
But to our dismay, it was the opp of wad we expected. Before the baked rice came, i was alr full by just eating the bread and i took a long time to finish up the baked rice.haha!
So the bottom line is, do not judge anything by its appearance! Haha!
Ard 1 plus the rest(ede,jwen,wx & hp) arrived and they ordered their food while me and xw had our deserts(:
Aftermath, we had a mini celebration for wx in cafe cartel and hopefully she was surprised by our actions(:
Ok, here are the photos that we had taken!
Our individual photos.
wx- The birthday girl!
Hp(:
Ede(:
Jwen(:
Xw(:
& The ugly girl! lol!(myself)
The mini celebration we had!
The birthday girl & the cake(:
Wx & Hp(:
Me & Wx(:
Birthday girl making her wish!
& Now she is cutting it!
xw distributing the cake(:
Our group photo! (SJ & Pying not in photo)
The threesome wif hoodies!
Our mass photo taking session after cafe cartel!
A decent one!
Funny faces(:
Smile wif your teeth wide!
Lets be serious girls! Lol!
Can you see our eyes?? Haha!
Ok, i shall stop here!
Feeling so stress and tired sfter studying out wif xw, aloy & yj!
So i shall go get my beauty sleep now! Haha(:
Wednesday, September 3, 2008 ; 5:39 PM♥
Because of you ; again.
Didnt went for sch ystd and i went to consult the doc and i had asthma, flu and fever! Its terrible to be sick man! I hate being sick and the worst thing is that i am sick at the wrong time! My exams are just like a week later and i am sick now! Anyway went to see the doc and the doc gave me 2 days mc which is for ystd and today so i wasnt suppose to go sch today but i still went for my access exam. Fortunately, the access paper was still managable and hopefully i would be able to score well! Aftermath i went home and of cos i slept! I kept feeling sleepy these few days maybe i am just lack of sleep.Haha! Initially i wanted to study but seems like i dunt have the energy to study cos i studied half way and i fell asleep! Omg! I dunno how am i gg to sit for my bussiness and accounting paper next week! I am so freaking worried for my papers next week man! I am worried mentally but not doing anything physically! Arghh!! Ok, nvm hopefully i would have the energy to start studying real soon!! I simply cant wait for my exams to be over and there comes the hols! My favourite! Haha(:
But seems like it wont be a very fruitful hols):
Nvm, i will just cross my fingers and hope that these coming hols will be a fruitful one!Labels: keep my fingers cross
Monday, September 1, 2008 ; 10:28 PM♥
Because of you ; again.
Everything hasnt been gg smoothly these few days..
But i dunt wish to elaborate further anyway.
Last fri had dance performance @ mac ite and i think it was great although there were mistakes here and there but the impt thing is that we enjoyed ourselves totally!
After performance, me and boon headed down to our sec sch.
Initially wanted to visit ms latha but she wasnt ard, wad a pity:( but nvm we managed to visit our dance instructor and she was very happy to see us and however i didnt regret gg back(:
Ystd went to xw hse and we studied business but we didnt study for long cos we got tempted by many things and so we only like studied for like a few hrs,haha!!
And i was supposed to go to her hse to study today too but i was sick so i didnt go to her hse today:(
But i dunt wish to elaborate further anyway.
Last fri had dance performance @ mac ite and i think it was great although there were mistakes here and there but the impt thing is that we enjoyed ourselves totally!
After performance, me and boon headed down to our sec sch.
Initially wanted to visit ms latha but she wasnt ard, wad a pity:( but nvm we managed to visit our dance instructor and she was very happy to see us and however i didnt regret gg back(:
Ystd went to xw hse and we studied business but we didnt study for long cos we got tempted by many things and so we only like studied for like a few hrs,haha!!
And i was supposed to go to her hse to study today too but i was sick so i didnt go to her hse today:(
Anyway i wish all teachers a..
HAPPY TEACHERS' DAY!
I miss my baby soo much, hope he will recover real soon!!
I miss you,baby!
No matter what, i will always be there for you(:
