Thursday, October 28, 2010 ; 3:36 PM♥
Because of you ; again.
Your heart knows your song, but you have to be willing to listen to the words.It's the third day for me feeling all fucked up and screwed!
Sometimes i have the urge to make things so freaking obvious in hope to let them know who i'm referring to but not to make things worst i shall keep it all to myself.
I don't want to feel so emotional anymore, my friends have been complaining about me being too emotional but i really hate to be like this.
It's the things happening around me that shape me to be what i am today.
I wish i could be more optimistic but i just can't.
Perhaps, i haven't tried but it takes lots of effort to change.
I always feel that i look weird with my fringe all pinned up as i have uneven eyes! Haha!
But well, i kind of think it looks better now.
What do you guys think?
Anyway, it's time for me to start cracking my brains to think who i want to be in the future and it has to be non-fiction and the person has to be famous!
Gosh, how am i gonna come out with it when i don't idiolised anyone :(
Someone help me pls!!
Oh well, I'm gonna take a nap first before i start cracking my brains.
Labels: The feeling is slowly fading away.
Wednesday, October 27, 2010 ; 10:01 PM♥
Because of you ; again.
It Just Doesn't Feel RightIts hard knowing the fact everyone thinks you have a wonderful life, fun , happy, and cheerful life, but when you are alone, you cry for no reason you just cry and cry till you feel happy and then when you are happy you want to feel sad again and just keep crying
Feeling so emotional all of a sudden and i kind of think that it's because i've been staying home for the past 2 days that i'm feeling so lonely!
Every wednesday is supposed to be a day out with baby but for the past few wednesdays it has been a day where i have been lazing at home and feeling all fucked up! :(
Thanks to the NS shit that made me feel so screwed!
It's times like this that made me feel like i'm going through all these alone and i felt like i've no one there for me besides baby!
I seriously think that it's time for me to meet the girls and so many others, it has been a long time since we last met.
I've been rather lazy to plan meetups recently cos i'm kind of scared to get disappointments, so all i'm doing all this while is just waiting.
But well, all my waiting have came to nothing!
Alright, apart from that monday went to the airport with meixin, yihui, jiaqi, huilin and cherry!
Jiaqi being the only guy he was feeling rather awkward but we girls are nice we will never make anyone feel left out (:
Had an awesome day with them and took a really long bus ride home which i really enjoyed alot!
I was telling jiaqi and huilin how i enjoyed long bus rides and they agreed with me too! (:
Gonna stop here!
Labels: I'm not that difficult to please.
Friday, October 22, 2010 ; 3:17 PM♥
Because of you ; again.
I Just Want To Know That I'm Worthwhile.
It's my last day of work today and i'm currently blogging in the office for the very last time!
I've completed the task that i was given when i just came and i can say that it's beautifully done.
I'm serioulsy going to miss the friends that i make here!
But somehow i feel so unappreciated and unwanted.
I know it's because i'm a temp or maybe it's my personality.
It just upsets me when i see them reacting this way.
The thing is, why am i so affected when they treat me as a nobody only?
Gosh! What the hell is wrong with me??
They leave me out in alomst everything except lunching but why do i still feel sad for leaving?
Fuck this feeling and this shitty world!
Sorry for the languge but i really cannot tolerate it anymore.
I've been tolerating all this shit for a long time but i've never shown it out before bcos i know i don't have the right to show them attitude bcos i'm not close with them and i'm just a temp here, which to them it's not counted as a team, so i'm here taking all this shit all alone!
People whom are close to me should know how i would react.
Alright, enough of all these shit!
I shall just leave this place and forget about everyone here except one very good friend that i've made here!
She have been the best throughout my stay here.
Met up with baby yesterday and it has been 4 long days not meeting him till yesterday and it feels so good to see him again!
Had a wonderful day with him yesterday.
Love him to the max! (:
Many of TB22 peeps birthday falls on october and tuesday we just celebrated Cherry's birthday and today the rest of the class went to celebrate Igen, Gideon and Jovin's birthday but sadly i couldn't make it. :(
I really wish i could make it lah.
Might be going over to find them after work if possible. (:
Saw the picture of the cake that they had made and it's damn cute.
Shall grab the picture and post it up here!
The next few are the pictures taken on tuesday. (: 
Labels: T.G.I.F but for me it's O.G.I.F
Thursday, October 14, 2010 ; 5:00 PM♥
Because of you ; again.
It Couldn't Be Any Better.Knocking off in 30 mins time and half of the time i'm slacking and surfing the net
. Went online shopping again and i bought one top which cost less than 10 bucks!
I think if i continue to be so free for the next week, i'm gonna be broke in no time.
Next week is gonna be my last week and i terribly want to leave but i will definitely miss the fun loving colleagues here.
Though i'm not really close to them but i love the way they talk and joke around during lunch time!
Anyway, met baby yesterday after work and we had steamboat which was similar to Seoul Garden.
The food there were awesome, lots of variety and it's much cheaper then Seoul Garden.
I think it's worth a try!
Baby was sick yesterday but his appetite was not affected at all!
He ate lots of food that i was so astonished by the amount of food he ate.
Aftermath, we walked around novena to digest and soon after we both went our separate ways.
Enjoyed my night with him though it was just a simple meet up!
And one more thing, baby said that i'm getting prettier and prettier and i kind of doubted his words but he claims that it's true so i shall accept it.
Furthermore, he rarely praise me so i should be happy! Haha!
Alright, ending work soon!
Labels: Just the way you are.
Monday, October 11, 2010 ; 10:59 AM♥
Because of you ; again.
ARIES Want The Acknowledgement of Their Good Work & Get Hurt If They Don't Get It.It's a monday morning and as usual i'm feeling so lethargic.
Nothing much to do still and it's getting lesser now as there is a new staff that came 2 weeks back and she's taking over my stuff but the only difference is that she's not a temp unlike me.
I love my current desk and today will be the best day for me to slack! Haha!
As my colleague sitting behind me is on leave and my boss will only be back this friday! Woohoo~
Today will be the day which will decide the fate of TB22 peeps.
We will be selecting our timetable today and all of us have been discussing about it yesterday.
The guys were awesome, they did alot of work by asking around all the classes and selecting the ones which are empty so that majority could be in the same class!
I'm so gonna break down if i can't be in the same class with those people whom i really want to.
I'm gonna camp infront of my com at 3:15pm so that i could get the class that i want and i know it sounds kind of kiasu but majority are like that! Haha!
Yesterday wasn't a really good day.
Nevertheless, i still enjoyed baby's company and now i feel that being the only child in the family is not really a good thing either.
Baby was abit harsh yesterday but i think his mum should undertsand his feelings.
I feel that i'm part of it too though i hadn't done anything wrong.
It's very difficult to remove a bad impression but i'm trying real hard!
I'm gonna do whatever it takes just to be with the person i love.
Labels: You mean the world to me.
Thursday, October 7, 2010 ; 10:19 PM♥
Because of you ; again.
It's hard to wait around for something that u know will never happen. but it's harder to stop when it's everything you've ever wanted.
I've decided to blog alittle since i'm using my laptop after so long!
I'm still kind of lost about the choosing of timetable.
It's so confusing and my bro is currently struggling to get a class for himself and appears to be freaking scary which actually freaked me out that's why i've decided to go online and check, to keep myself safe.
The last few days were crazily fun and tiring that i've decided to go late for work as i'm really worn out.
The 3 days with TB22 peeps were awesome, felt kind of emotional on the last night as the thought that i won't be in the same class as these awesome people kind of upsets me :(
But well, this is life so i just got to face it.
Hopefully will get to be in the same class with some of them.
Sadly no one brought a camera, what a pity lah!
Anyway Igen brought polaroid so at least i had one polaroid shot with me.
Wanted to go wild wild wet the 2nd day of the chalet but i was so unlucky!
It was closed on tuesday and i was so sad lah cos i haven't been there before and the most part saddening part is i can't go with TB22 :(
Hence, we decided to go for in line skating and i suck at that!
I didn't know how to skate and i fell on my butt umpteen times that my butt starts to cramp now and then but it was worth the try.
The guys were awesome!
Some of them didn't know how to skate too but there were hell daring unlike me!
Weilong, Igen and Cherry got to take turns to hold my hand cos i was so freaking scared that i will fall but i still fell though and it was super hilarious!
Alright all in all, i totally enjoyed the 3 days 2 nights spent with TB22 and i really will miss them!
Got to stop here now, heading to bed real soon!
Labels: Cherish those awesome people who pass by your life.
Monday, October 4, 2010 ; 10:08 AM♥
Because of you ; again.
One Of The Hardest Things In Life Is Having Words In Your Heart You Can't Utter.Currently, i'm stoning in office.
Have been web hopping since i turn on the com, i'm not sure if there is such a word but basically i've been going to different websites to waste time.
I've got nothing much to do so i'm trying my best to drag my stuff so that i won't die of boredom.
Apparently, i'm feeling so tired that i really have the urge to sleep on my desk right now!
The weekends were tiring but no doubt it was fun!
Last sat went to ede's bf chalet together with tracy, shaff and salwa as he was celebrating his 21st.
Tracy, Shaff and Salwa left early as tracy had work the next day, Shaff couldn't stay out late and Salwa brought her daughter!
Her daughter was super cute, she's not afraid of new surroundings, she don't cry much and she have nice features but too bad didn't took any pictures with her :(
Initially, i was supposed to go back with Tracy but last min i decided to stay on to accompany ede and wait for XW.
However, Xw didn't make it as something cropped up at her work place and it was a pity that we couldn't meet her!
Seems like she's not fated to meet us huh?
It's been a long time since we last met her as she's always busy with work.
Hopefully there will be a time when we can meet her soon!!
Anyway, i stayed on and played funny games with ede's bf's friends and they were awesomely funny!
Drank martell and i wasn't that tipsy, guess my alcohol level has increased. HAHA!
The friends sent me home and thus i was able to save up the cab fare (:
We had a hard time getting home that day as there was a heavy downpour and it was the worst downpour i've ever seen.
Vision was bad due to the heavy downpour but luckily it was super early in the morning, hence there weren't many cars on the road.
Reached home at 5am, wash up alittle and quickly head to bed so that i could wake up on time to meet baby the next day.
Despite having the mindset to get up early to meet baby, i still overslept cos i was so tired.
Headed to baby's place for dinner, as usual ate alot of food that made me felt super bloated!
Went off with baby as he needed to book in and he bought lots of junk food for his field camp.
He have been avoiding vegetables the last few days cos he doesn't want to shit in the jungle! HAHA!
Gonna miss him for 5 days :(
But i think time will pass fast this week cos i'll be having chalet for the next 3 days with TB22. (:
Alright, i'm gonna stop here now cos it's very wordy already.
Labels: You're the best i could ever ask for.
Friday, October 1, 2010 ; 9:20 AM♥
Because of you ; again.
It Doesn't Mean That You Will Get Good Results After Great Contribution.
It wasn't a very good morning to start with as i overslept in the morning but the lucky thing is that no one will be in office today.
On the other hand my results will be out today so be it good or bad i will have to face it alone.
Alright as i was typing that sentence one of my colleague walked in so means i'm not alone today but i rather be alone today cos i'm not really close with her and i don't talk to her! HAHA!
Now, i'm feeling all uneasy bcos of her presence! :(
Went to see my results just now and i was kind of disappointed, it wasn't what i had expected but well what pass has passed so i shall let bygones be bygones and hope for the better the next time round.
Yesterday had a fun day out with Chuiling, Xiaojuan and Jane.
Celebrated Jane's belated birthday and we successfully surprised her! (:
Got home at 12am and i was super worn out by that time cos ever since i started work i have the habit to turn in at 10.30 or 11 but it will never hit 12am!
Anyway the time with them was well spent, had many fun moments and unglam moments which resulted us in laughing throughout the whole time!
Labels: Don't be disheartened.
