Saturday, June 27, 2009 ; 2:38 PM♥

Because of you ; again.

Had a very tiring day ystd.

Slept at 6am in the morning the day before and i woke up at 6:10am to follow my dad out to help him get his season parking bcos i screwed up everything! Which means i only slept for 10 mins! LOL! When i was taking the bus to HG mall i almost missed the stop bcos i was too tired and i really looked like a zombie! As i was too tired i didnt wanna take bus cos the bus ride would be super long so i decided to take circle line back to bishan, anyway i have not tried taking it before and it was pretty fast. Reached bishan in ard 15 mins!

After i got home used com awhile and slept agn at 11am. Got up at 3:40pm, went over to meet daph, nic & ben. They were damn funny lah and nic kept talking about gore movies! Took some pics with nic while daph went up to have dinner and we look damn retarded lah esp nic! LOL:P

Aftermath, i parted with them at ard 9 plus. Met up with CY for some discussions and i reached home at ard 3am and woke up at 6am to help my dad :(

Another tiring day!!

Althouh i kept telling myself

that i know what i want

and whats best for me,

but somehow there's a part of me

that is reluctant to follow

and its holding me back.

I'm just feeling so confused.

Wednesday, June 24, 2009 ; 11:40 PM♥

Because of you ; again.

YOU KNOW I'LL BE THERE.

I think my sleeping routine has changed drastically!

Every night i will be home after 12am which in the past i wouldn't. I used to sleep at ard 12 plus in the past but now even worst! I slept at 3am in the morning. OMG!

I'm afraid i will have difficulty getting back to my normal routine when school starts and the worst thing is that i can't be late for school anymore or worst still be absent from school. My attendance is really getting from bad to worst! I wonder is 2nd year more strict or is the teacher's problem? Suddenly, i don't have the determination and perserverance to continue studying anymore. Perhaps is not studying rather not studying there anymore. I hate the system there, it really sucks. Everyone there don't really seem motivated towards studies.

Ystd went to O Bar and i saw ken! I was rather shock to see him there, didn't expect to see him there. Went over to chit chat with him and i kept asking him for discounts and stuff but sadly he wasn't able to offer that to me as he have just started working there and ystd was only his 3rd day of work. Glad to know that he is enjoying working there(:

Drank quite alot ystd and its more than what i usually drink and CY was saying that i am so much better alr cos i drank the same amount as what they drank and they are really good in taking alcohol! I screwed the day up ystd :( But well, i still did enjoy myself! I hope what i did ystd didn't screw up their day.

Can't wait for tmr as once agn its time for MAC meetup!

So excited but we are gg orchard agn this time. So boring!

Kind of contradicting huh? LOL!

But still feeling more excited then bored(:

Gonna stop here cos its too wordy to carry on.

All i need is time.

Time will reveal.

Thursday, June 18, 2009 ; 1:15 PM♥

Because of you ; again.

FATE

Went to Topone for singing session with shujuan and ede and it was really fun! After singing for a few hrs we were all really tired and we didnt really wanna sing anymore but we still continued to sing till the time is up! However, after we left we just came singing non-stop! Weird eh? When we were there we don't wanna sing but after we left we just kept on singing. LOL! Aftermath, we went to MOS to have our dinner as the three of us were famished after singing for so long. Head down to the new mall just beside bugis junction and i don't know what is the mall's name! LOL!

The shops there were very little, maybe its because some of the shops are not open yet but the building is nice! Haha! After which, we headed back home and i trained down to bishan tgt with ede and she treated me a cup of strawberry milk tea! I am so touched, ede! Hahahaah!! Thanks anyway(: Was feeling super tired after i reached home but well, i couldnt fall asleep though. This feeling sucks! Went online and talked to Cheryl and after she told me some stuff i was suppose to be feeling sad but she was really a great entertainer! LOL!

Why must i know all these now?

If i had known earlier,

maybe we wouldnt end up like this.

But well,

maybe all this were fated

& we were just not meant for each other.

Sunday, June 14, 2009 ; 10:47 PM♥

Because of you ; again.

Haha, finally i can blog with pictures!

After so many wordy post. Haha!

Well, had quite an enjoyable day ystd(:

Went to shaw house, Mango with boon and was suppose to reserve clothes but well those that i looked on didnt fit well on me so i didnt get anything while boon got herself two and she is like so happy! Haha!

Aftermath, we went to ps to walk ard and at the same time to find yong rong, jia ren and Ian (:

We went to catch, Land Of The Lost and it was quite a great movie! Its super hilarious. Half of the time, the cinema would be filled with laughters! Great movie indeed(:

We had lots of time before the movie starts, so we went to mac to get some food. Then yong rong and Ian started taking out cards, they said they want to show us magic but in the end, we sarted playing daidee and here is the most hilarious part! We played heart attack and we were damn crazy that everyone were looking at us, so embarrassed man! But well, we didnt really bother because we were really enjoying ourself to the max! LOL!

After parting with them, someone came to pick me up and we discussed some stuff at my area and i went back at ard 3am. Was super tired by then and quickly head for my bed(:

Had an enjoyable day though(:

Love them all!

Thursday, June 11, 2009 ; 4:28 PM♥

Because of you ; again.

REMINISCE

(Chorus)
Do you know how to touch a girl?
If you want me so much
First I have to knowAre you thoughtful and kind?
Do you care what's on my mind?
Or am I just for show?
You'll go far in this world
If you know how to touch a girl
(do you know how to touch, know how to touch a girl x2)

I think I could like you
But I keep holding back
'Cause I can't seem to tell
If you're fiction or fact
Show me you can laugh
Show me you can cry
Show me who you really are
Deep down inside
Do you feel something happening
Could this be for real?
I don't know right now
But tonight will reveal

Suddenly, had the urge to listen to this song and it starts bringing alot of memories back.
The more i tried not to think, the more i will.
I am really having a hard time now.
How long will this last?

I'm faking a smile every single day.
I'm avoiding from many facts every single day.
I'm forcing myself not to think about it every single day.
I'm forcing myself to stay happy every single day.

I just find it so hard to accept the fact.
I just have this trauma in my mind, that makes me so afraid of falling agn.

Tuesday, June 9, 2009 ; 9:02 PM♥

Because of you ; again.

TIRED :(

Am feeling super tired in the morning as i slept at like 4am ystd night.

Went to Le Bar for drinking as he had liquor there not finished yet.

We played dice and i kept losing most of the time lah:(

So well, i drank most of it, its not alot though but i suck in drinking!

I will get very dead by just drinking alittle :o

Aftermath, went to the 7 eleven there to get more drinks. Haha.

Decided to get back to bishan before we start drinking agn bcos by then it will be very difficult to get back as there will be road blocks.

Went to bishan park, we drank there and we were totally gone!

Reached home at ard 4am and i just hit for my bed after i reach home cos i was dead tired!

Woke up in the morning and was freaking dehydrated, drank lots and lots of water!

The whole day i walked like a zombie, talk without sense!

After school accompanied salwa for alittle while and quickly went home to get more rest cos i am really lagging of rest:(

Although i have like slept for quite long but still very tired though!

I'm like a pig man!

Gotta stop here(:

Seriously,

I'm damn lost,

I don't know if what i am doing now is correct,

I don't wish to get anyone hurt after everything.

I just need time.

Friday, June 5, 2009 ; 1:24 PM♥

Because of you ; again.

SHAGGED!

Tried my best to keep myself busy for the entire week and as a result i was very shag after the whole week.

After i get the photos from xw i wil have lots of photos to upload but till now i still have photos that i have not uploaded!

Kind of lazy to upload them. LOL!

Went to watch another movie for the second time in this week and you know what?

The both of us fell asleep during the show!

We took turns to fall asleep, its like so funny lah!

But i think i know whats the show abt lah..

Wasted 7.50 each to sleep in the theatre. LOL!

School was as usual boring!

I'm starting to lag behind alr cos i have like missed two days of lessons and during that two days, teacher have taught quite alot as a result i have to really study on the weekends to catch up!

Wanted to go for cca today but was feeling really tired so in the end i didnt go for it.

Felt quite guilty for not gg cos its alr like my second or third time not gg.

I have to go next week man!

Ok, gotta stop here.

I need plenty of rest!!

Labels: I just can't avoid thinking abt it

Monday, June 1, 2009 ; 11:24 PM♥

Because of you ; again.

LET-IT-GO!

Was feeling super tired in sch today as i only had like an hr sleep for the whole day ystd and thanks to someone for accompanying me thru out the whole night which resulted in you not sleeping for the entire day despite the fact that you had to attend work!

I'm really so grateful to you(:

After sch went to ps with someone then met xw, shafiq, jiayu and her friends for monsters vs aliens.

It was a very hilarious movie and didnt regret watching!

Thru the whole time, half the time we would be laughing non-stop over minor issues which makes us looks like retards! Its really so enjoying to be out with them(:

Lastly, i'm so glad that i had friends like you guys!

They made my day a fulfilling one.

I do admit that i really do miss you

but somehow i can't just let things go on

when i know that something hasn't been

going right for a very long time

This teaches people a lesson which is

treasure the ones before you

make them feel loved for as much as you can

show them that they really are impt to you

do not start to regret when its too late.