Friday, July 23, 2010 ; 6:26 AM♥
Because of you ; again.
FEEL LIKE AN IMMORTAL NOW.OMG! I can't believe that i could stay awake till now, which is 6:30am!
Stood up the whole night to finish up Bmgt project at gid's house and everyone slept a little here and there except me!
Normally, i would be the first to sleep at home but now its the opposite.
I'm feeling so happy and relieved now bcos i finished my DSS!
Initially, i sort of given up on that stupid function "solver" but as i persisted to figure it out, i finally got a solution.
I'm so happy now!
The feeling is even better then striking lottery.
On the other hand, bmgt is almost done just some touching up here and there.
Guess i wont be sleeping until tonight.
Hopefully i will be able to stay awake in school later.
This situation reminds me of my study session with the bitches.
When i was still in ITE taking my very last exam there which was just a few months back.
Still remember studying with them till 5 plus in the morning when exam was just a few hours later.
Really missed those times and the bitches.
The bitches seem to be quite busy recently, havent been hearing much from them.
Alright, i think i shall stop here!
Thursday, July 15, 2010 ; 2:10 PM♥
Because of you ; again.
TIME WAIT FOR NO MAN.Apparently i'm in school rushing through projects and for this whole entire week, it has been a norm for me.
Haven been staying back and going school early for project meetings.
I've never felt so stress in my entire life.
Thankfully baby was there to help me through and initially i wanted to accompany him this whole week but i didn't expect myself to be down with so many projects :(
Slept at 2am yesterday as i was editing video for my LMS project and as expected i overslept therefore i missed MAEC lecture this morning!
I'm feeling so sinful now.
I'm gonna lag behind :(
As i'm still down with project meeting, i had to skip bmgt lecture so that i could get it done.
But at the rate we're going now, i doubt we would be able to finish.
Alright, i am gonna stop here.
Ciao.
Thursday, July 8, 2010 ; 12:11 AM♥
Because of you ; again.
YOUR LOVE IS MY DRUG.Alright, shall take back the post i wrote 2 days back.
Perhaps at that time i was thinking too much.
Life isn't that bad afterall.
I know who are my true friends now and i hope i am right about them.
Low Poh Jen texted me today after reading my post and POH JEN...
This is for you.
Thanks for being there for me and i know you're a super good friend.
We went through lots together and i will never forget.
Be it sad or happy, we were always there for each other.
Never regret knowing you 2 years back and i hope you feel the same way too.
I LOVE YOU, LOW POH JEN!
Hopefully she will get to read this. (:
If she don't then its too bad.
She wont get to hear the good words that comes from me as i will never say that in front her as she is super thick skin.
She will start to fly if i were to say it infront of her. HAHA!
Didn't attend lessons today but i went back to school for PBL2.
Frankly speaking, i feel that PBL2 is not as tough as PBL1 as we got to set our own questions.
Many projects are due the following week and this term will be a fast one.
Had dinner with baby at BP and headed down to meet mr manager to pass him my work stuff.
I'm super happy that i am going to get done with it soon!
Won't have to go down anymore i hope (:
Though i'm happy that i wont have to work anymore but on the other side i'm sad :(
Because after next month, i might have to feed on grass.
My irritating mum is giving me monetary problems again!
I'd seen it coming long ago but i still decided to quit my job so i guess i had asked for it huh?
I really hope to get another job soon but not so tough like the one i had.
Its kind of difficult to get a job of my requirements.
I doubt i will be able to find it unless i have connections which i don't :(
I really don't know what i should do now.
Thank god, i've a nice bf and a nice bf's mum.
After she got to know about my situation, she did something that i was so shock!
She gave me a 100 bucks and ask me to tell baby if i don't have money.
I feel so bad taking her money.
She's really so much better then my mum.
I'm not being realistic here but my mum doesn't give a shit about me!
I was sick yesterday and when i told my parents that i wanted to see a doc, only my dad voiced out to ask if i had money to see whereas my mum just kept quiet!
Super fxcked up!
I seriously pity my dad, i hope my dad will be able to live till ripe age.
Can't afford to lose my dad.
He's really a noble and understanding father.
Though, at times i would quarrel with him and not talk a few days but ultimately i still love him.
Labels: I need guidance.
Monday, July 5, 2010 ; 10:53 PM♥
Because of you ; again.
UNLOVED.Its been a long time since i felt so emo.
Don't know what is wrong.
I think baby's presence did made a difference, perhaps i will be weeping in bed if i hadn't met him for the entire day.
I've never felt so bad for a pretty long time.
I thought those days were over but, NO!
It's back here once again.
Kind of sad to see people around you caring for each other except for you.
Maybe its because of my stupid thinking that made me felt so depressed!
It's like what i've done to get this kind of treatment?
Though i've been trying hard to console myself that having 4 people in your life who cares about you is good enough but to no avail the heart is not getting any better.
Am i just too greedy?
For now, the best solution is to stay away from that site and focus my mind on studies and bf.
I should show more care and concern towards baby.
Made him super sad and heart broken yesterday as he felt that i've been spending too much time with friends.
Perhaps, what is happening to me now is karma.
What goes around comes back around.
I've got many thoughts running through my mind now and its making me feel worst!<.br/>
I guess this is the most emo post ever!
Should just mind my own business in future.
Its just too much to take when people around you are not reacting to your needs when you will always try to be there for them.
Oh man, i really need a break!
I remember myself posting something like that a few months back and at that time i promised myself the same thing but here i am, back to square one.
It's easier said then done.
I'm not a good friend and i think my actions seems fake which led me to this state.
I just need some time alone.
Labels: How i wish all these were just a dream.
Friday, July 2, 2010 ; 9:47 AM♥
Because of you ; again.
It's Time To Do Some Serious Thinking.
Surprisingly i'm up earlier then i'm supposed to.
This week was quite a depressing week.
Got back results for CT and it wasn't comforting at all :(
Perhaps, i'm just unlucky.
Hopefully, i would be able to do better during the EOY exam which i doubt i will.
Alright, it sounds kind of contradicting here.
Anyway, mon met up with my lovely friends and its always nice to meet up with them.
Tracy and ede was nice enough to meet me all the way at NP then went to KKH to visit salwa.
It was the best day as finally all of us got meet each other after so long and it was full attendance! I LIKE (:
Another meet up is going to come soon!
Yesterday was me and baby's special day but sadly he wasn't able to meet me so well, we got to postpone it to today.
Got and did things for him, hopefully he will like it (:
This is what i had done and i really miss baby's long hair!
Oh well, its just one more year to go and baby will be back with his long hair i suppose! HAHAHA!
Labels: 12 months of togetherness.
